ThatSpaceyKid
Bluelighter
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Let's just say after 5 days of binging on Crystal Meth 3-4 bags worth a day for a week then sleeping on Saturday and Sunday. It is just an amazing life. 
I never feel pleasure anymore and have been pissed off lately.. Which leads to me dosing again and again... When I'm tweaked I feel amazing. I feel zoned and love every hour that it lingers. No crash until day three of sobriety that's it so I only go one day without tweaking if ever :,( The next day I'm good to go The next best thing is amazing tweaked out sex . Being brave and not caring about protection Hitting up whoever's down to chill for a little bit. I only hang with down to earth people so it's easy... Offer the drugs and end up having a great night things don't get crazy.. Or end up getting really tweaked with someone and smoking heroin it is an AMAZING night.
So after dosing, trying to learn to like heroin again by smoking a dot, feeling euphoric as fuck, being up for 5 days almost, eating very little, random teeth grinding, feeling nothing at all, breaking down into tears some nights, and hating myself I finally say fuck it. Call up some attractive friends with benefits, tweak, and have meaningless sex just for fun. I like to try anything naturally.. There's nothing in me stopping me to be honest.. I live to LIVE and die hard. I don't care who comes over as long as their down. It's fun to be tired as fuck, and raised like nothing from some of my favorite Crystals. Then to stand up and nearly faint? Hell yes. Sex just sounds like a good idea. By the time the night goes by I'm enlightened and feel amazing. Euphoria sends chills all through me as it is, to have a good tweak and a good fuck makes the week worth it and if it was worth my time. just I just feel nothing but a sense of well being on Crystal wheras being sober.... I am so depressed and can't do anything for days...
I like the whole world of tweaking to be honest... You don't fuck yourself up if you take care of yourself somewhat besides doing drugs they aren't the issue here... Your physical appearance will degrade if you don't brush your teeth, eat, drink water, take vitamins, drink Gatorade when you wake up, have sex, sleep, shower, wear clean clothes, or use to often making yourself thin and sunken. and your life will be fucked once you need to be a thief for your shit, fuck for your stuff, or mooch. Support your own habit with your own sources, drugs, money, and drug of choice. That's what I do.. If you take care your still acceptable for sex because you don't satisfy the dirty Hobolike lazy smelly rage filled stereotype.
I dont know if its a mix of adrenaline, increased dopamine and serotonin, the meth rush, being tweaked, and repressed sexual activity because meth is more fun in my experience ? I just... Need to have chemicals flood my body everyday to feel alive... But I need to fuck to when I'm burnt. You know priorities.. sex can wait but not forever.. Til next week Well this is my life every week.. Besides work I do drugs. After binging and getting bored I have amazing sex no strings attached . And feel extremely aroused and satisfied overall..


I never feel pleasure anymore and have been pissed off lately.. Which leads to me dosing again and again... When I'm tweaked I feel amazing. I feel zoned and love every hour that it lingers. No crash until day three of sobriety that's it so I only go one day without tweaking if ever :,( The next day I'm good to go The next best thing is amazing tweaked out sex . Being brave and not caring about protection Hitting up whoever's down to chill for a little bit. I only hang with down to earth people so it's easy... Offer the drugs and end up having a great night things don't get crazy.. Or end up getting really tweaked with someone and smoking heroin it is an AMAZING night. So after dosing, trying to learn to like heroin again by smoking a dot, feeling euphoric as fuck, being up for 5 days almost, eating very little, random teeth grinding, feeling nothing at all, breaking down into tears some nights, and hating myself I finally say fuck it. Call up some attractive friends with benefits, tweak, and have meaningless sex just for fun. I like to try anything naturally.. There's nothing in me stopping me to be honest.. I live to LIVE and die hard. I don't care who comes over as long as their down. It's fun to be tired as fuck, and raised like nothing from some of my favorite Crystals. Then to stand up and nearly faint? Hell yes. Sex just sounds like a good idea. By the time the night goes by I'm enlightened and feel amazing. Euphoria sends chills all through me as it is, to have a good tweak and a good fuck makes the week worth it and if it was worth my time
. just I just feel nothing but a sense of well being on Crystal wheras being sober.... I am so depressed and can't do anything for days... I like the whole world of tweaking to be honest... You don't fuck yourself up if you take care of yourself somewhat besides doing drugs they aren't the issue here... Your physical appearance will degrade if you don't brush your teeth, eat, drink water, take vitamins, drink Gatorade when you wake up, have sex, sleep, shower, wear clean clothes, or use to often making yourself thin and sunken. and your life will be fucked once you need to be a thief for your shit, fuck for your stuff, or mooch. Support your own habit with your own sources, drugs, money, and drug of choice. That's what I do.. If you take care your still acceptable for sex because you don't satisfy the dirty Hobolike lazy smelly rage filled stereotype.
I dont know if its a mix of adrenaline, increased dopamine and serotonin, the meth rush, being tweaked, and repressed sexual activity because meth is more fun in my experience ? I just... Need to have chemicals flood my body everyday to feel alive... But I need to fuck to when I'm burnt. You know priorities.. sex can wait but not forever.. Til next week
Well this is my life every week.. Besides work I do drugs. After binging and getting bored I have amazing sex no strings attached . And feel extremely aroused and satisfied overall.. 

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