Dissios personality changes?

[Bitchniggaz]

Ive been using hallucinogens for about 10years now.
Ive tried most common avaiable psychs and dissios by now.
Dabbled a bit in rc's aswell.

Well the last few years ive done quite regular dissio trips.
Except for a brief 6months break ive done at least 1trip per month with some form of dissiociastive drug.
Ive also done 5-10 psychedelic trip per year aswell.


What im wondering is what kind of stereotypical personality changes happens from dissio heads like me?

I can honestly say that im on the edge of abuse at times with dissios.
I dont feel any urge to binge or take things daily though.
However i cant have the stuff around me, at least when it comes to keta.
Thats why i only buy 1g at a time.

Im curious since i would like to understand how people around me sees me and my change in behavior these past years.

 

[MSK]

Ive been using hallucinogens for about 10years now.
Ive tried most common avaiable psychs and dissios by now.
Dabbled a bit in rc's aswell.

Well the last few years ive done quite regular dissio trips.
Except for a brief 6months break ive done at least 1trip per month with some form of dissiociastive drug.
Ive also done 5-10 psychedelic trip per year aswell.


What im wondering is what kind of stereotypical personality changes happens from dissio heads like me?

I can honestly say that im on the edge of abuse at times with dissios.
I dont feel any urge to binge or take things daily though.
However i cant have the stuff around me, at least when it comes to keta.
Thats why i only buy 1g at a time.

Im curious since i would like to understand how people around me sees me and my change in behavior these past years.

For me they changed, and still are changing, a lot about my personality and the way I see the world. I have learned to don't stress myself about every aspect of life, like I was doing before, and now I've got a more "I don't give a fuck" attitude, on a positive way, even when sober. Of course, I don't have got this attitude with my job, or things that really matter. Dissos and psychedelics have helped balancing my natural ADHD racing mind and personality.

 

[xammy]

MSK hit the spot. I've been using 3-MeO-PCP pretty regularly and that amazing "I don't give a fuck" feel is just something I love. It's hard to explain - only way to convey it is something like that it feels like that life is just smooth sailing without any stress or distractions.

 

[Solipsis]

Looking at some of the immediate changes from something like 3-MeO-PCP that aren't apparent until quite a bit later after discontinuation, yes it is the "I don't give a fuck" feel, but it's also secretly a major "I can't give a fuck" component. Not giving a fuck and stopping all rumination dead in its tracks certainly has its upside, but you can just about guess about the personality change which in my experience isn't hypothetical but a reality: it numbs me to my core and the way it's done seems to be quite a bit more insidious than with opioids.

I mean, I do use them and I do numb myself out but it seems like people who would say the amazing feel is about it are kidding themselves.

The good news is that - equally unsubstantiated - I'd say that just like the cognitive effects it's reversible although depending on the changes it may take a few months to quite a bit more months to recover... the perma-tolerance doesn't exactly bode well, but who can say that it implies significant perma-dysfunction?