A little backstory, I became addicted to oxys then heroin as it freed my mind from all the stress I find myself incapable of dealing with. After a while, my tolerance and heroin was just becoming unmanagable, spending $200 a day, you opiate addicts know how it goes.
So I am now on suboxone.
I never really liked benzos, until I tried a valium a couple months ago, it seems everyone has there favorite benzo, seems mainly kpins or xanax, but for me those did virtually nothing.
So right now I am stuck, considering indulging on a valium addiction because of how happy, productive and it increases my quality of life. I think the huge half life helps as well cause it literally lasts me all day. I currently can obtain valium pretty easily and pretty cheap, even though I don't have a script.
So for those who are / have been addicted to benzos, is it worth it? what are the pros and cons.
I know my tolerance would go up, and eventually I'd probably be taking around 50mg a day, it seems the only real issue would be when I run out after i become dependent which I can only imagine the nightmare that would create, but I don't know where else to turn.
Pros:
Happier
Anxiety free
Cure to insomnia
Productive
Cons:
Addiction
Money
Running out and benzo withdrawal (I've experienced heroin and fentanyl withdrawal, but I know benzos are a whole different demon)
Brain chemistry changing, and when I stop having to recover (takes almost a year).
So for those of you who have been through it, or use a benzo daily, please help I really need opinions and experiences of others.
Thanks.
So I am now on suboxone.
I never really liked benzos, until I tried a valium a couple months ago, it seems everyone has there favorite benzo, seems mainly kpins or xanax, but for me those did virtually nothing.
So right now I am stuck, considering indulging on a valium addiction because of how happy, productive and it increases my quality of life. I think the huge half life helps as well cause it literally lasts me all day. I currently can obtain valium pretty easily and pretty cheap, even though I don't have a script.
So for those who are / have been addicted to benzos, is it worth it? what are the pros and cons.
I know my tolerance would go up, and eventually I'd probably be taking around 50mg a day, it seems the only real issue would be when I run out after i become dependent which I can only imagine the nightmare that would create, but I don't know where else to turn.
Pros:
Happier
Anxiety free
Cure to insomnia
Productive
Cons:
Addiction
Money
Running out and benzo withdrawal (I've experienced heroin and fentanyl withdrawal, but I know benzos are a whole different demon)
Brain chemistry changing, and when I stop having to recover (takes almost a year).
So for those of you who have been through it, or use a benzo daily, please help I really need opinions and experiences of others.
Thanks.