AddictedAnna
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- Jan 28, 2018
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Not sure if this is the right place to post as I?m new,but will try here anyway. I have a painful medical condition which my doctor gave me dihydrocodeine for. One day I was in so much pain I didn?t care about the dose stated. I was in agony and needed it to be gone. Instead of the recommended dose of 2 30mg 4 times a day, I just downed 4 at the one go. The pain did go away, but I also felt euphoric. It was amazing and for the first time I?m ages I managed to do all my cleaning etc, go out shopping. The simple things I don?t normally get to enjoy. Fast forward a year ..... I now have to take at least 6 30mg with my morning coffee just to function. I then half them and take half every hour until about lunch time and then I?m fine for the day. My max daily dose is 8 anyway so I try to stick to 8 (but obviously I don?t spread them out like I used to). My tolerance to opiates is MASSIVE. I no longer take Diazepam to help relax me or my muscles during very painful times because it?s a waste of time. I took 160mg Diazepam and felt nothing, so I just thought this is pointless. However I cannot stop this habit with the dihydrocodeine. Anyway, sorry for the speel, just wanted to explain my situation. My issue is ALCOHOL. I don?t know why all of a sudden I?m terrified about this because In the last year I?ve been blind drunk many times and nothing bad has happened. I go to bed and wake up and get on with my day. On Friday my friend Came round with wine and I poured a glass and has this thought ?what if I?ve damaged my heart and my respiratory system fails tonight and I die in my sleep?..... needless to say for some reason I have never worried about this before but I did on Friday and I sipped on half a glass of wine between 7:30pm and midnight when she went home. I was a nervous wreck. So anyway I have a big engagement party next weekend which obviously I planned on drinking at. I?m now terrified though that I will die in my sleep. I guess my question is (and I get that nobody can predict the future or know what?s going on in my body so I?m looking for personal ?opinions?) Are the chances of this happening - me dying in my sleep - on this daily dose mixed with alcohol really high? Bare in mind I have a
Majorly high tolerance to opiates. I want to be ?normal? and enjoy a drink with all my
Friends but I?m now terrified of it. Any input would be greatly appreciated. Thankyou.
Anna
Majorly high tolerance to opiates. I want to be ?normal? and enjoy a drink with all my
Friends but I?m now terrified of it. Any input would be greatly appreciated. Thankyou.
Anna