Did meth for my first time.

[whataurban]

Since 12 AM Tuesday morning I've been snorting and smoked 2 bowls, I've slept 4 hours since then I'm dry now so I'm dealing with the comedown

But me and my brother and our friend (I don't got the connections besides DN.) was all together and the homie wanted some coke and my brother couldn't find any.

So my brother asked him if he wanted any meth and the first thing he asked is if we was going to do it with him I said yeah as I have wanted to for a while for one reason only so I don't eat, as I deal with disordered eating habits.
I wasn't doing it for the high, but that fast euphoria along with the burst of energy, made things great.

Usually my mind tends to be slow, a nuisance and getting off the shards has helped me (just like coke it speeds up the thought process I enjoy it.) out.

While feeling it (almost instantly) I was thinking on some deep shit because I always have told myself I wouldn't do meth
So I ended up getting emotional while I was out of my mind actually enjoyable, compared to the chaos that is normally present when sober. I'm usually up tight and don't show my actual raw emotions, because I get laughed at/made into a joke at for being vocal about how I feel by the fam.

So the first thing I thought of was my lil sis ,we lost our dad in 2011 to a heroin OD, and I just sat and thought it'd crush her if she knew I was doing this. Because I don't want her to see me follow in our dads footsteps. This shit made me cry, something I don't do often because I just don't really show emotion.

Is there anyone out here that uses meth not just for the typical effects, also not using it as typically seen, which I know is uncommon. But has anyone un/intentionally been able to work through issues (whatever they may be) they may be having?

 

[2spun4one]

So here's the thing, if I'm understanding your question correctly, it sounds like your interest in doing meth is to suppress appetite. And although it will effectively suppress your appetite, it's also going to do more harm than good to you mentally and physically, and probably even emotionally. If all your trying to accomplish is to eat less, dude there are other ways to do that without the strong potential for wreaking havoc on your life that is very likely going to happen to you by using meth. Sounds like you have minimal
experience with the drug, which makes you all the more vulnerable. Before you jump into an alternate life you may one day seriously regret, do yourself a huge favor and read threads posted in the dark side, basic drug discussion and other areas here on bluelight. In these threads, you will be able to learn the potentially devastating power that meth has, first hand from people who have already took the trip... I'm sure the absolute best advice anyone who has gotten involved in meth would give you is stay the hell away from meth altogether...

 

[VerbalTruist]

It's not a great practice to try and manage a problem with methamphetamine. There are other appetite suppressants out there. I mean, shit, what about ANYTHING else?

 

[Larimar]

You want to lose weight try adderall , great suppressant and gives energy and focus . Meth will make you look like a toothless grey zombie , adderall won't .

 

[freesolo123]

I find that most people who say they are using a drug for a positive reason and are not addicted are lying to themself. I have a friend who has MS and she would smoke crack because it gave her a surge of energy and she could function, she would tell me she wasn't addicted it just helped her get by but whenever she ran out she had the classic crack withdrawal symptoms but she would say its her MS vicious cycle.

I guess my point is lots of people start to use drugs for good reasons like to perform better but the drug always ends up controlling them and they need to use to function. Addicts are created everyday saying "Is there anyone out here that uses meth not just for the typical effects".

Be careful.

 

[d1nach]

Using amphetamines for reducing hunger and giving you energy and a mood lift when u should be miserable because your body is starving for the nutrients it needs to be happy isnt untypical you can find endless amounts of people who did this just look at models and movie actresses who are dead because it doesnt address their mental issues and they kill themselves or they overdose or they dont get the nutrients they needed.

Sorry if this comes off rude im just trying to not sugarcoat it. Your idea isnt anything new and I even just saw a thing about two actress on youtube who did nearly the exact same thing as you took amphetamines for their eating disorders and to give them energy because they were exhausted and couldnt go to food for energy and they died.

 

[d1nach]

And this was decades like nearly a hundred years ago.

*Sorry double post cant edit on mobile

But felt important this plan isnt new and has been a deadly fail for atleast a century

 

[Coolwhip]

Guys read his whole post before you reply.

But has anyone un/intentionally been able to work through issues (whatever they may be) they may be having?

He's not asking about using meth for appetite reduction, he's asking about its ability ti allow one to work through psychological trauma. Much in the way that many professional psychologists/psychiatrists are advocating the use of MDMA during therapy sessions.

My own personal take is without a structured plan, with experienced professionals leading the way, is this won't work as intended.

 

[sk0sH]

Guys read his whole post before you reply.



He's not asking about using meth for appetite reduction, he's asking about its ability ti allow one to work through psychological trauma. Much in the way that many professional psychologists/psychiatrists are advocating the use of MDMA during therapy sessions.

My own personal take is without a structured plan, with experienced professionals leading the way, is this won't work as intended.

I would feel like dissociatives like Ketamine or DXM would help, but they would also need to be in a structured environment with medical professionals working with you.

Or psychedelics. Psychedelics are probably more promising, as they allow you to more consciously focus on your entire self, whereas dissociative drugs just distance you from the issue.

 

[JustBlaze420]

I'm not going to lie to you guys if you come across good meth , it is unlike any other drug out there....

For instance most cocaine is stepped on speed anyway..and you start craving it again five minutes after you use it

Where as with meth you can generally take a decent dose and be alright for the next 7-8 hours without any desire to take more

As long as you have some benzo's on hand for once it wears off it would be like you never took them at all....

This is a harm reduction site and I feel weird recommending meth but really is it one of those things where you get the most bang for your buck

There is also very many ways to administer the drug for instance you can dissolve it in your water or you can insuffulate it....etc each approach delivers a different type of high ....for me I like drinking it because its the easiest ..and seems to be the most smoothest ride...

There is always a dark side to any drug and for the amount of joy meth has brought me , it also turned me into a complete physocapth at times ....at one point I was scavenging though my toiletry garbage because I was convinced I had accumulated some in there I ended up riffing off pieces of a plastic bag and dissolving it in water, I would later realize all I was doing was drinking dust and whatever debris was left in my garbage can ...

This entire time I was high , looking through the cracked tiles on my bathroom floor trying to scavenge anything I might have dropped during the process of originally consuming the drug

This went on for hours and was the only annoying part of the drug... the obsessive compulsive behaviour, looking for drugs in every crack and corner for hours in my bathroom that never existed in the first place but in my mind I was determined it was there .

Otherwise I has a lot of fun browsing pornhub I pretty much built a library of porn lol

I did meth for a week straight and have no desire to do it again, but if the opporrunity presented itself and I had nothing lined for a awhile I might consider doing it again , I have no regrets , only the amount I consumed that's it, I'm still alive , and feeling better than ever .....

 

[JustBlaze420]

Doctors will actually prescribe you dexedrine and adderall at low therapauric dosages for weight loss, I seen it happen so something to considering....if you explain your situation, just dont bring up the meth use ha..

 

[JustBlaze420]

What you did in the past doesnt make you, it was you do in the future and the present that defines you

And if you give up drugs all together and become a saint, your sister will absolutely be proud of you....

You gotta look at her as an adversary....

My dad is a junkie as well I haven't seen him in 10 years but I guess the apple doesnt fall far from the tree because I'm following in his foot steps , im becoming the piece of shit everyone always thought I was going to be ...I just need to find it in my heart to change , it's hard when you have no guidance or mentors