DeathIndustrial88
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I first discovered DXM around the age of 19.
I had become homeless with my mother & was forced to relocate & find work.
Of course, I did not have a weed or other drug connect in this new area at the time.
And being somebody who has some anxiety & depression problems, how else was I going to work a new job without getting totally gone on something?
That's when I discovered DXM. I started drinking a bottle or two before going to work. It got so bad that one morning I stepped out of my car in the parking lot and literal robitussin bottles would fall out and roll down the pavement.
Back then I remember it giving me that mild drunke/stoned/zoned out feeling without much else, maybe some confusion & slight visuals but some how I was able to work and keep a job during it.
Once I found a weed dealer, I ceased use of dxm altogether & then got into opioids (a different story).
Flash forward to the age of about 26/27 and I went through a bad break up. During this breakup & for awhile after, I did not work & went on a complete self destruct mode for almost 2 years.
This is when I discovered DXM again & holy shit. This time the trips were completely mind blowing. I thought I knew this substance from my previous use in my early 20s with it. But I was wrong.
Of course during this break up, I often had those pesky "I wonder what they're doing right now" or "I bet they're with somebody else right now" thoughts that drove me insane.
If anything, I can look back retroactively and say that DXM taught me during this time to let go. To be free. Once I was full blown on a trip, these thoughts were still there, but I was able to feel okay with them.
I felt like I was connected to everyone and everything & that I couldn't be angry at some one for being human or making mistakes. And that it was only hurting me.
These trips were very visual, in my minds eye & my real eyes some times. And almost "mystic", actually scratch that, I still consider some of the trips during this time actual mystic experiences (for me anyway).
Not only did I have insane euphoria, revelations, crazy synchronocities, paranormal events & tons of fun delusional thinking but this ended up becoming a regular thing for 2 years or more.
I would drink anywhere from 300-1000mg and just be totally wowed by everything that would transpire afterwards. Some nights were less eventful but the trip still felt meaningful or at least somewhat fun. I even had a handful of times where I felt as tho I were "dying" and what I felt like was a full blown "out of body experience". This usually happened on the 600+mg doses when I would combine it with cannabis.
I mostly went on these trips when "my" pain pill scripts would run out out for the month. As I felt like some times getting completely fucked on DXM was the only thing that could take my mind off the withdrawals.
After many years of doing it a couple of times a month, the trips started to become more side effect ridden & I eventually screwed up & tripped too close to after having taken a dose of effexor.
I ended up with convulsions in my legs (which I've since learned now was probably serotonin syndrome). Couldn't walk. Legs were shaking & my toes were curling up. I immediately took a klonopin & laid down until the convulsions had stopped on their own & seemed fine in a couple hours.
I believe I was about 29 when I decided enough was enough. And am in going on my mid 30's now.
After that I stopped. And would only stick to low doses (60-100mg) For opioid potentiation.
For almost a good 5 years now I have not tripped.
Until in the recent months that is.
I had been feeling like I need this introspection again to get through some things mentally.
So I have tried 300mg, 400mg & 600mg trips again, which would have been pretty decent experiences at least for me back in the day.
Except that the most that happened, even up to 600mg, was a body load and head feeling like my head was stuck in mud.
Absolutely no euphoria, no CEV's, No OEV (until almost 8hrs later, which would only happen in the dark right as I felt like I was ready to pass out).
No mind blowing revelations, no synchronicities, no paranormal, not even the manic "mysticism" that I use to enjoy from it.
At most, it made me feel lethargic & extremely zoned out. That's about it.
And it seems to take several hours to kick in now a days, like longer than 2. Has been very underwhelming (even with thc).
Multiple attempts now. Basically pointless. Even after almost 5 years.
Now I don't care to hear anyone tell me not to use DXM or whatever BS.
I'm simply curious if anyone else has had this experience, if anything can be done about it and if you think the 50 trip limit is a real phenomenon?
Why were my trips so insane and world shattering in my lates 20's but my early 20's and now are mediocre and boring at best?
I'm aware DXM is not an opioid, but a left handed image of one & studies say it can be reversed with naloxone.
Do you think long term suboxone / buprenorphine use could impact a dxm experience or remove some of it?
I had become homeless with my mother & was forced to relocate & find work.
Of course, I did not have a weed or other drug connect in this new area at the time.
And being somebody who has some anxiety & depression problems, how else was I going to work a new job without getting totally gone on something?
That's when I discovered DXM. I started drinking a bottle or two before going to work. It got so bad that one morning I stepped out of my car in the parking lot and literal robitussin bottles would fall out and roll down the pavement.
Back then I remember it giving me that mild drunke/stoned/zoned out feeling without much else, maybe some confusion & slight visuals but some how I was able to work and keep a job during it.
Once I found a weed dealer, I ceased use of dxm altogether & then got into opioids (a different story).
Flash forward to the age of about 26/27 and I went through a bad break up. During this breakup & for awhile after, I did not work & went on a complete self destruct mode for almost 2 years.
This is when I discovered DXM again & holy shit. This time the trips were completely mind blowing. I thought I knew this substance from my previous use in my early 20s with it. But I was wrong.
Of course during this break up, I often had those pesky "I wonder what they're doing right now" or "I bet they're with somebody else right now" thoughts that drove me insane.
If anything, I can look back retroactively and say that DXM taught me during this time to let go. To be free. Once I was full blown on a trip, these thoughts were still there, but I was able to feel okay with them.
I felt like I was connected to everyone and everything & that I couldn't be angry at some one for being human or making mistakes. And that it was only hurting me.
These trips were very visual, in my minds eye & my real eyes some times. And almost "mystic", actually scratch that, I still consider some of the trips during this time actual mystic experiences (for me anyway).
Not only did I have insane euphoria, revelations, crazy synchronocities, paranormal events & tons of fun delusional thinking but this ended up becoming a regular thing for 2 years or more.
I would drink anywhere from 300-1000mg and just be totally wowed by everything that would transpire afterwards. Some nights were less eventful but the trip still felt meaningful or at least somewhat fun. I even had a handful of times where I felt as tho I were "dying" and what I felt like was a full blown "out of body experience". This usually happened on the 600+mg doses when I would combine it with cannabis.
I mostly went on these trips when "my" pain pill scripts would run out out for the month. As I felt like some times getting completely fucked on DXM was the only thing that could take my mind off the withdrawals.
After many years of doing it a couple of times a month, the trips started to become more side effect ridden & I eventually screwed up & tripped too close to after having taken a dose of effexor.
I ended up with convulsions in my legs (which I've since learned now was probably serotonin syndrome). Couldn't walk. Legs were shaking & my toes were curling up. I immediately took a klonopin & laid down until the convulsions had stopped on their own & seemed fine in a couple hours.
I believe I was about 29 when I decided enough was enough. And am in going on my mid 30's now.
After that I stopped. And would only stick to low doses (60-100mg) For opioid potentiation.
For almost a good 5 years now I have not tripped.
Until in the recent months that is.
I had been feeling like I need this introspection again to get through some things mentally.
So I have tried 300mg, 400mg & 600mg trips again, which would have been pretty decent experiences at least for me back in the day.
Except that the most that happened, even up to 600mg, was a body load and head feeling like my head was stuck in mud.
Absolutely no euphoria, no CEV's, No OEV (until almost 8hrs later, which would only happen in the dark right as I felt like I was ready to pass out).
No mind blowing revelations, no synchronicities, no paranormal, not even the manic "mysticism" that I use to enjoy from it.
At most, it made me feel lethargic & extremely zoned out. That's about it.
And it seems to take several hours to kick in now a days, like longer than 2. Has been very underwhelming (even with thc).
Multiple attempts now. Basically pointless. Even after almost 5 years.
Now I don't care to hear anyone tell me not to use DXM or whatever BS.
I'm simply curious if anyone else has had this experience, if anything can be done about it and if you think the 50 trip limit is a real phenomenon?
Why were my trips so insane and world shattering in my lates 20's but my early 20's and now are mediocre and boring at best?
I'm aware DXM is not an opioid, but a left handed image of one & studies say it can be reversed with naloxone.
Do you think long term suboxone / buprenorphine use could impact a dxm experience or remove some of it?
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