Hi this is my first post any comments are appreciated, I will try to be straight to the point as best i can. I dont know if it matters but im a young adult male. Leading up to this event my use of weed and alcohol slightly rose over time but still i fall into the light user category at the most low end moderate user of weed and alcohol.
I started smoking weed back in August 2017 and i only do it a couple times a month with friends for the vast majority. I have had no probelms with smoking until now. Around 4 days before this happened I shared 6 joints with a group of friends and i took my fair share of hits. Along with that i drank a beer and had a sip or two of gin. I had a buzz going form the alc but nothing much. I ate an edible which was about 55mg and we all fell asleep. As i was waiting to fall asleep i was having mild weed induced hallucinations and some anxiety which was a first so i just figured i was too high and fell asleep. I felt fine in the morning and didnt think much of it.
So this is where things go wrong. About 4 days after this i come home from work and decide to smoke a bowl or two, i wont even get that high i thought. So im smoking by myself in my backyard. I take a couple hits till the bowl is done and i go inside. I start feeling like somethings off. Im not even that high either but the weed was pretty good. I have vicid thoughts about what if my family member finds out i smoke. Ive thought this before while sober and doesnt really bother me and i dont dwell on it. They wouldnt be that mad. I take a warm bath and as im in the bath my heart rate goes up. I still feel like somethings off its a very vauge feeling that i couldnt describe. I go to my bed and lay down. I am hit withh intense depersonalization and derealization which is a first for me. The world feels lacking in signifgance and importance. Im having deep thoughts and i feel very depressed along with the dr and dp. I take deep breaths and ii feel as though my breaths are out of sync with my heart rate. I notice my heart physically feels its beating irregularly and i start to feel dizzy a little off balance and light headed. My muscles ache but ive never felt an ache like this before. I stand up and go for a walk i comeback because of my heart. I lie down again. Im lying in my bed and my muscles feel really achy and kind of stiff. My heart rate feels off beat. All of a sudden i have a heart palpitation. I just lay in bed trying to fall asleep eventually i do and wake up the next morning feeling a little depressed and derealized. This goes away later in the day and i feel how i normally would. I tell my friend what happened as i describe what happened i kind of feel the symptoms come back again but far less intense and they subside. I also forgot to mention days after the experience i had random loud ear ringing out of nowhere which was odd but is gone now.
I have tried smoking weed after this and i just feel derealized and depressed along with mild anxiety. I still feel high but the high is completely ruinef by the new negative side effects which kick in soon after i spark up. It happens after just two hits of a dab pen or one bowl. I feel like smoking will never be the same and its not really worth it anymore. Its been a week since the experience.
Im wondering what was it that caused the symptoms and why. Ive done shrooms twice and both times have had a good experience. The derealization felt like a terrible form of ego death but ive never felt full on ego death from shrooms. I plan on not doing shrooms until i figure out what happened. My thoughts have been really deep lately and i feel like the experience was mildly traumatic. * I wonder if something happened to my seratonin in my brain or something like that. Im hoping for some input and thoughts on this. Thanks for reading.
I will delete this thread in a couple days thanks for all the replys I now have a good idea of why this happened going to take break for a while, goodluck with everything everybody.
I started smoking weed back in August 2017 and i only do it a couple times a month with friends for the vast majority. I have had no probelms with smoking until now. Around 4 days before this happened I shared 6 joints with a group of friends and i took my fair share of hits. Along with that i drank a beer and had a sip or two of gin. I had a buzz going form the alc but nothing much. I ate an edible which was about 55mg and we all fell asleep. As i was waiting to fall asleep i was having mild weed induced hallucinations and some anxiety which was a first so i just figured i was too high and fell asleep. I felt fine in the morning and didnt think much of it.
So this is where things go wrong. About 4 days after this i come home from work and decide to smoke a bowl or two, i wont even get that high i thought. So im smoking by myself in my backyard. I take a couple hits till the bowl is done and i go inside. I start feeling like somethings off. Im not even that high either but the weed was pretty good. I have vicid thoughts about what if my family member finds out i smoke. Ive thought this before while sober and doesnt really bother me and i dont dwell on it. They wouldnt be that mad. I take a warm bath and as im in the bath my heart rate goes up. I still feel like somethings off its a very vauge feeling that i couldnt describe. I go to my bed and lay down. I am hit withh intense depersonalization and derealization which is a first for me. The world feels lacking in signifgance and importance. Im having deep thoughts and i feel very depressed along with the dr and dp. I take deep breaths and ii feel as though my breaths are out of sync with my heart rate. I notice my heart physically feels its beating irregularly and i start to feel dizzy a little off balance and light headed. My muscles ache but ive never felt an ache like this before. I stand up and go for a walk i comeback because of my heart. I lie down again. Im lying in my bed and my muscles feel really achy and kind of stiff. My heart rate feels off beat. All of a sudden i have a heart palpitation. I just lay in bed trying to fall asleep eventually i do and wake up the next morning feeling a little depressed and derealized. This goes away later in the day and i feel how i normally would. I tell my friend what happened as i describe what happened i kind of feel the symptoms come back again but far less intense and they subside. I also forgot to mention days after the experience i had random loud ear ringing out of nowhere which was odd but is gone now.
I have tried smoking weed after this and i just feel derealized and depressed along with mild anxiety. I still feel high but the high is completely ruinef by the new negative side effects which kick in soon after i spark up. It happens after just two hits of a dab pen or one bowl. I feel like smoking will never be the same and its not really worth it anymore. Its been a week since the experience.
Im wondering what was it that caused the symptoms and why. Ive done shrooms twice and both times have had a good experience. The derealization felt like a terrible form of ego death but ive never felt full on ego death from shrooms. I plan on not doing shrooms until i figure out what happened. My thoughts have been really deep lately and i feel like the experience was mildly traumatic. * I wonder if something happened to my seratonin in my brain or something like that. Im hoping for some input and thoughts on this. Thanks for reading.
I will delete this thread in a couple days thanks for all the replys I now have a good idea of why this happened going to take break for a while, goodluck with everything everybody.
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) but it did give you the opportunity to think about ego at a time of life when ego is really under assault as it tries to be in charge of your thoughts. It can be very life changing to question your own thoughts around your feelings.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
It really amplifies sensation, and this can of course be negative sensation. I would suggest you take any of your stoned experences with a grain of salt.