DexWeedAndMe
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Hello all. A little background:
Started smoking pot about 6 years ago. It was my first drug, and I loved it. Been a fairly heavy smoker over this period of time, but over the past year or so I've noticed... if I go even so much as a day or two without smoking, I get really intense anxiety when I partake again. Now, this disappears after I smoke a time or two over the day. If I have a steady supply, it's not an issue at all. Smoke, have a pretty bad experience, smoke again, have a less bad (though still not pleasant) experience, smoke again and I'm good to go. That's all fine and good, except that I've been broke and job hunting lately, so I don't have a steady supply, which means I only smoke occasionally, and when I do, it's in a social situation, which makes it all the more miserable. Everybody else is good, while I'm in my head like "Holy shit, this sucks. I need to calm down." I'm wondering if this could have anything to do with my psychedelic use over the past two years? I've done quite a bit of different psychs over the last two years, and it's the only thing I can think that would cause me to react the way I do now to cannabis.
I mean, when I VERY first started smoking, I had a few pretty rough panic attacks, but then it went away and everything was smooth sailing. I used to be able to smoke like a friggin' freight train. If someone put an ounce in front of me and said "You have to finish all of that today." I could have done it. I still think I could now, if I'd already been smoking. But I can guarantee you (it's been two or three days since I've smoked) the next time I smoke, I'm gonna have to talk myself down from an anxiety attack. It's gotten to the point where I already know that beforehand. I don't really necessarily have any particular basis for blaming the psychs, it just seemed like a plausible theory. I believe I have mild HPPD, as sometimes when I'm sober things will breathe and move. Cannabis now gives me slight visuals, as to where it didn't used to.
If anyone has any input on this, it would be greatly appreciated. It's just a shame.. I used to really enjoy cannabis, and I still do. But as I said, if I take even the slightest break, the first time or two smoking again is NOT fun. I'm beginning to turn into more of an alcoholic, rather than a pot smoker. Polar opposite of how I used to be. It might also be beneficial to note that if I'm drunk, haven't smoked in a few days, and I decide to smoke while I'm drunk, everything is fine. I smoked a whole gram with a friend of mine about a month ago while I was drunk. Hadn't smoked in a few days, and usually just one bowl would send me into panic mode in that situation. But I was drunk, and it was no issue to go through the whole gram.
Sorry if this was tl;dr for anyone. Just had a lot to say about the situation. I don't necessarily think there's anything I can do to fix it now, other than just get a fairly large amount and stick it out through the first little rough patch. I just would like to know if anyone has any idea on whether or not the psychs were what caused it to flip on me like this, and if not them, then what?
Started smoking pot about 6 years ago. It was my first drug, and I loved it. Been a fairly heavy smoker over this period of time, but over the past year or so I've noticed... if I go even so much as a day or two without smoking, I get really intense anxiety when I partake again. Now, this disappears after I smoke a time or two over the day. If I have a steady supply, it's not an issue at all. Smoke, have a pretty bad experience, smoke again, have a less bad (though still not pleasant) experience, smoke again and I'm good to go. That's all fine and good, except that I've been broke and job hunting lately, so I don't have a steady supply, which means I only smoke occasionally, and when I do, it's in a social situation, which makes it all the more miserable. Everybody else is good, while I'm in my head like "Holy shit, this sucks. I need to calm down." I'm wondering if this could have anything to do with my psychedelic use over the past two years? I've done quite a bit of different psychs over the last two years, and it's the only thing I can think that would cause me to react the way I do now to cannabis.
I mean, when I VERY first started smoking, I had a few pretty rough panic attacks, but then it went away and everything was smooth sailing. I used to be able to smoke like a friggin' freight train. If someone put an ounce in front of me and said "You have to finish all of that today." I could have done it. I still think I could now, if I'd already been smoking. But I can guarantee you (it's been two or three days since I've smoked) the next time I smoke, I'm gonna have to talk myself down from an anxiety attack. It's gotten to the point where I already know that beforehand. I don't really necessarily have any particular basis for blaming the psychs, it just seemed like a plausible theory. I believe I have mild HPPD, as sometimes when I'm sober things will breathe and move. Cannabis now gives me slight visuals, as to where it didn't used to.
If anyone has any input on this, it would be greatly appreciated. It's just a shame.. I used to really enjoy cannabis, and I still do. But as I said, if I take even the slightest break, the first time or two smoking again is NOT fun. I'm beginning to turn into more of an alcoholic, rather than a pot smoker. Polar opposite of how I used to be. It might also be beneficial to note that if I'm drunk, haven't smoked in a few days, and I decide to smoke while I'm drunk, everything is fine. I smoked a whole gram with a friend of mine about a month ago while I was drunk. Hadn't smoked in a few days, and usually just one bowl would send me into panic mode in that situation. But I was drunk, and it was no issue to go through the whole gram.
Sorry if this was tl;dr for anyone. Just had a lot to say about the situation. I don't necessarily think there's anything I can do to fix it now, other than just get a fairly large amount and stick it out through the first little rough patch. I just would like to know if anyone has any idea on whether or not the psychs were what caused it to flip on me like this, and if not them, then what?