alex_anders_8
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I have written my actual question in bold. If you do not have time for - or are not interested in - a little backstory and info, please scroll down to the text written in bold.
Brief backstory: I'm 25 years old and have been an addict for 6 years. I was severely alcohol dependant for three and a half years (4-6 bottles wine a day) when I developed a very severe acute pancreatitis. I almost died and was in hospital for 3 months. During this time I was being given IV morphine every 4 hours. I left the hospital detoxed from alcohol but with a new opiate addiction and a prescription for OxyContin and Roxicodone. Over the last 2.5 years benzo's have replaced alcohol but I've struggled on and off with addictions to benzo's, opiates, amphetamines and various other prescription drugs.
I had been clean from benzodiazepines and amphetamines for 14 months and clean from alcohol and heroin for 8 months. Never stopped taking a range of meds but mostly prescribed (Sertraline, Methadone, Melatonin, Diphenhydramine, etc).
Six months ago, my mam blacked out behind the wheel of her car and was in a bad accident (no other vehicles involved, but she crashed into the side of the road and the car flipped over several times. She was very lucky and came out of it with a broken sternum and severe laceration down her forehead the only serious injuries (plus a lot of nasty bruises and she was pretty shaken up). She had a battery of tests but they were unable to say what caused the blackout other than her heart and the electrolytes or electric impulses were just not picking up quite right.
Last month she had a second blackout at a nephews wedding, resulting in a lacerated arm and a fractured elbow.
She was hospitalised and more tests were done.
Two weeks ago she was diagnosed with a rare heart condition that meant her heart could and would just stop beating at any time. She was told she was extremely lucky that both times, her heart had managed to get itself started up again quickly because that very rarely happens. Most people with the condition just drop dead (like Sudden Death Syndrome We were told there was no treatment or cure and that it was fatal.
That day she was rushed into theatre and had a pacemaker, defibrillator and (another I cant remember) put in on her heart to help maintain a regular rhythm.
It will HELP to kick-start her heart again, but there's no guarantee. They also cannot stop her blacking out which in itself is dangerous (if she is on an escalator, or walking across the road when it happens, or she hits her head etc....)
Anyway, I have always been very close to her. I won't get into it as I'm taking the piss a bit with this long story as it is (SORRY!) but I have had a very difficult life and have gone through endless abuses and traumas. Basically, when this happened with my mother, I just gave up. I just don't care any more. It's one devastating blow too many.
So I started taking Xanax, Pregabalin and Amphetamine Sulphate.
The Pregabalin I only bought 5 150mg caps of so that was just a 2-3 day thing ('till I get more).
So I took 0.5mg of Alprazolam twice a day, plus 1mg of Alprazolam at night. I did this for ten days.
I then went 5 days with no benzo's.
I have all the things I'm gonna take in stock or w/e now. I have both Xanax and Klonopin, but they just arrived today. I am taking just the Clonazepam atm because I have no previous experience with it. I did my research and know that it is exactly the same potency as Alprazolam, but with a much longer half-life.
My problem is...it SEEMS very weak? Keep in mind the Xanax doses I took; 0.5mg would have been nice and calmed and 1mg would have a fairly strong relaxing effect. This evening I have taken:
18:00 - 0.5mg Clonazepam
18:30 - 0.5mg Clonazepam
20:25 - 1mg Clonazepam
21:45 - 0.5mg Clonazpam
22:15 - 1mg Clonazepam
I DO feel it. I am calmer, more relaxed and sedated etc. But I have consumed 3.5mg Clonazepam in a little over 4 hours. I'd say I feel the same as I would if I had taken 1mg Alprazolam in a similar time-phrame. To be fair, the last 1mg I took 9mins ago so probably hasn't had time to take effect. But even taking that off, why does 2.5mg Clonazepam feel like 1mg Alprazolam when they are the same potency??
They are definitely legit pills, btw. The Alprazolam I had were generic 1mg pills. The Clonazepam is Roache brand 2mg pills.
Do different people experience different benzo's in different ways? Is it usual the the "equivalent dose" of a new benzo may actually seem a lot stronger or weaker depending on the person?
Any advice?
Note: I take amphetamines all during the day and then mix amphetamines with benzo's by evening and then take higher benzo doses at night to relax/sleep. I take care of my mother by myself from 8am to 10pm. I'm not using again in a purely selfish way. I make sure I a energetic, alert and clear headed throughout the day. I do everything for her. I have clonazepam for severe stress/anxiety and alprazolam in case of actual panic attack and for sleep (until I obtain Zopiclone).
Brief backstory: I'm 25 years old and have been an addict for 6 years. I was severely alcohol dependant for three and a half years (4-6 bottles wine a day) when I developed a very severe acute pancreatitis. I almost died and was in hospital for 3 months. During this time I was being given IV morphine every 4 hours. I left the hospital detoxed from alcohol but with a new opiate addiction and a prescription for OxyContin and Roxicodone. Over the last 2.5 years benzo's have replaced alcohol but I've struggled on and off with addictions to benzo's, opiates, amphetamines and various other prescription drugs.
I had been clean from benzodiazepines and amphetamines for 14 months and clean from alcohol and heroin for 8 months. Never stopped taking a range of meds but mostly prescribed (Sertraline, Methadone, Melatonin, Diphenhydramine, etc).
Six months ago, my mam blacked out behind the wheel of her car and was in a bad accident (no other vehicles involved, but she crashed into the side of the road and the car flipped over several times. She was very lucky and came out of it with a broken sternum and severe laceration down her forehead the only serious injuries (plus a lot of nasty bruises and she was pretty shaken up). She had a battery of tests but they were unable to say what caused the blackout other than her heart and the electrolytes or electric impulses were just not picking up quite right.
Last month she had a second blackout at a nephews wedding, resulting in a lacerated arm and a fractured elbow.
She was hospitalised and more tests were done.
Two weeks ago she was diagnosed with a rare heart condition that meant her heart could and would just stop beating at any time. She was told she was extremely lucky that both times, her heart had managed to get itself started up again quickly because that very rarely happens. Most people with the condition just drop dead (like Sudden Death Syndrome We were told there was no treatment or cure and that it was fatal.
That day she was rushed into theatre and had a pacemaker, defibrillator and (another I cant remember) put in on her heart to help maintain a regular rhythm.
It will HELP to kick-start her heart again, but there's no guarantee. They also cannot stop her blacking out which in itself is dangerous (if she is on an escalator, or walking across the road when it happens, or she hits her head etc....)
Anyway, I have always been very close to her. I won't get into it as I'm taking the piss a bit with this long story as it is (SORRY!) but I have had a very difficult life and have gone through endless abuses and traumas. Basically, when this happened with my mother, I just gave up. I just don't care any more. It's one devastating blow too many.
So I started taking Xanax, Pregabalin and Amphetamine Sulphate.
The Pregabalin I only bought 5 150mg caps of so that was just a 2-3 day thing ('till I get more).
So I took 0.5mg of Alprazolam twice a day, plus 1mg of Alprazolam at night. I did this for ten days.
I then went 5 days with no benzo's.
I have all the things I'm gonna take in stock or w/e now. I have both Xanax and Klonopin, but they just arrived today. I am taking just the Clonazepam atm because I have no previous experience with it. I did my research and know that it is exactly the same potency as Alprazolam, but with a much longer half-life.
My problem is...it SEEMS very weak? Keep in mind the Xanax doses I took; 0.5mg would have been nice and calmed and 1mg would have a fairly strong relaxing effect. This evening I have taken:
18:00 - 0.5mg Clonazepam
18:30 - 0.5mg Clonazepam
20:25 - 1mg Clonazepam
21:45 - 0.5mg Clonazpam
22:15 - 1mg Clonazepam
I DO feel it. I am calmer, more relaxed and sedated etc. But I have consumed 3.5mg Clonazepam in a little over 4 hours. I'd say I feel the same as I would if I had taken 1mg Alprazolam in a similar time-phrame. To be fair, the last 1mg I took 9mins ago so probably hasn't had time to take effect. But even taking that off, why does 2.5mg Clonazepam feel like 1mg Alprazolam when they are the same potency??
They are definitely legit pills, btw. The Alprazolam I had were generic 1mg pills. The Clonazepam is Roache brand 2mg pills.
Do different people experience different benzo's in different ways? Is it usual the the "equivalent dose" of a new benzo may actually seem a lot stronger or weaker depending on the person?
Any advice?
Note: I take amphetamines all during the day and then mix amphetamines with benzo's by evening and then take higher benzo doses at night to relax/sleep. I take care of my mother by myself from 8am to 10pm. I'm not using again in a purely selfish way. I make sure I a energetic, alert and clear headed throughout the day. I do everything for her. I have clonazepam for severe stress/anxiety and alprazolam in case of actual panic attack and for sleep (until I obtain Zopiclone).
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