Ahh hope your doing better now brother I learned the hard way why they call it liquid handcuffs.. I don't know if I will ever be off methadone my smack habit has been through the roof lately but I have recently started going gym for the first time in years and you can tell I ain't been for a long time heck these days I get out of breath when I'm having a shit never mind 5 min on a treadmill jogging speed however even though my fitness is appalling for my age i pushed myself as much as possible and my muscles are aching even as I write this and since I went gym 2 days ago I have regained some fire in my belly that I ain't had in years I never really went gym before actually I always seen it as a waste of money I did used to be into exercising though when I was in my mid to late teens i used to do 100 + press ups a day and jog miles every morning for 6 months I transformed myself from a puppy fat loser to a loser with a 4 pack lol
but ofcourse then i started smokimg weed getting into harder drugs and slowly lost all the fruits of my labour my chest is that bad that I am pretty sure I have a permanent whooping cough although it usually only happens when I'm smoking off foil because my lungs have just had enough..
I think I already mentioned it before but I nearly died from pneumonia around Christmas I was on a breathing machine for 3 days.. I had caught some terrible respitory bacteria infection I was dealing drugs to and I had full blown 20 year crack heads telling me I look grey as a goul eventually I told my boss I can't do this no more I can't even fucking walk straight he came to the hospital a few days later drove me back to my place to collect his doe (I'm not complaining though cus he gave me 20 bags of the finest afghan brown you ever had) sadly he went awol a couple weeks ago think he must of been arrested it's been hard since he went I basically had unlimited supply for a while there and had some side action going on to probably for the best tho cus I need to get off this shit before it kills me either directly or indirectly..
Sorry to go off topic if you want my advice get back on the methadone unless you think you got it in you to ride it out and hey power to you if you have but theirs no point suffering like this brother especially if you end up back on smack methadone is the lesser of two evils that's the way I see it.. the trouble is I have to have them both because like an idiot I used and seen methadone as "free heroin" which it is but if you take it as intended it is also a life saving medicine and able to give us our lives back..
Peace and love.
Hey man I read your post and I felt I needed to comment, sorry to the op, I guess this is a bit off topic.
I've been on the methadone program since 2000 and I'm not sure if I will ever get off it but I'm ok with that.
I think you hit on something very important when you mentioned you were getting to the gym.
In the 23 years I've been on methadone I've had periods when I was doing really well, eating really well and getting to the gym 4-5 times/week.
Then I have also had a few periods where I played up and pretty much without exception during those times my diet was poor and training nonexistent.
Every time my exercise and diet are good, then my overall sense of well being generally is pretty dam good.
I agree with you completely that if used correctly methadone can be and is a life saving medication, it 100% kept me from going back to prison and a fair chance I wouldn't even be here after 30 years of H use if it wasn't for the methadone.
I also understand that someone on methadone is dependent on their dose and they can't just spontaneously decide to go on a holiday.
However if you stay away from other substances, maintain a good diet and exercise routine and generally have your shit together, life on methadone is good, at least it is for me and I guess I can really only speak for myself.
I guess what I'm trying to say in an extremely long winded way is, keep going to the gym man, consistancy is the key when it comes to training and you will feel better the more you do it and start to see some changes.
All the best mate,