Justin1j2j3j4
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Mar 27, 2014
- Messages
- 33
So about a month ago now I had a bad trip on shrooms where I took 4 grams of some strong shrooms and I experienced a car crash where my friends were covered in blood and glass. After that I felt like I was dying and the shrooms had poisoned me or the crash was killing me. I kept feeling like it was hard to breathe and became insanely thirsty.
My friends said that I kept trying to shove my hand down my throat but nothing was coming up and I kept spitting in their faces without noticing and I couldn't walk straight or see straight. Several times I zoned in and out and drifted away from consciousness. I must have fallen asleep or something cause all I remember in the beginning was the car crash then taking a Valium to cut it out and getting scared when it didn't then waking up to my friends yelling at me to sleep because it was really late. I thought that they had accepted my death and wanted me to "sleep" aka die. I couldn't sleep and then my friends walked me to one of their houses. I remember feeling like I was walking through hell and being laid on satans bed. The entire time I was super thirsty still.
Now weeks later I am super scared of dying and death. I am constantly worrying about each breath being my last and I can't seem to stop thinking about what will happen to me after or if my friends will die. I can't seem to forget the trip and my world feels totally different now.
My first question is why do you think I was so thirsty the entire time? I couldn't even feel myself drink water and I felt the most thirsty I have ever felt. My second question is how can I change how I feel now and stop having such a phobia of death?
My friends said that I kept trying to shove my hand down my throat but nothing was coming up and I kept spitting in their faces without noticing and I couldn't walk straight or see straight. Several times I zoned in and out and drifted away from consciousness. I must have fallen asleep or something cause all I remember in the beginning was the car crash then taking a Valium to cut it out and getting scared when it didn't then waking up to my friends yelling at me to sleep because it was really late. I thought that they had accepted my death and wanted me to "sleep" aka die. I couldn't sleep and then my friends walked me to one of their houses. I remember feeling like I was walking through hell and being laid on satans bed. The entire time I was super thirsty still.
Now weeks later I am super scared of dying and death. I am constantly worrying about each breath being my last and I can't seem to stop thinking about what will happen to me after or if my friends will die. I can't seem to forget the trip and my world feels totally different now.
My first question is why do you think I was so thirsty the entire time? I couldn't even feel myself drink water and I felt the most thirsty I have ever felt. My second question is how can I change how I feel now and stop having such a phobia of death?