psychefluctuation
Greenlighter
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- Feb 8, 2016
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Bear with any mistakes or rules I may break while posting this. I'm new so please let me know. Anyway, a couple of months ago I took acid while in what some might consider a bad state (I know it's dumb but I was trying to get over my depression.) While I was tripping on somewhere around 300-400mics I found my way into my mom's bedroom. She was sleeping and I decided to strike up a conversation with her. She could tell I was tripping and was rightfully annoyed by me keeping her up at around 2a.m. Eventually I became more and more introspective and asked her if I made her sad and she said yes without hesitation. I waited for I don't know how long thinking about that then asked "Do I make other people sad too?" And she said yes in the most angry and spiteful way possible. Since this experience I haven't been able to carry myself with any sort of confidence, despite overcoming my conscious insecurities because I assume some part of me still thinks I just make everyone sad and no one takes me seriously. My eyes water if I feel even the slightest bit of anxiety and I can't control a lot of physical symptoms since this. I'm wondering if anyone else has experienced anything similar to this and how they got over it.