RichardMooner
Bluelighter
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- Jan 10, 2014
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I use to smoke frequently, maybe a couple of times a week, for a month about once a day, whatever I was really in the mood for. Wasn't like some huge habit or whatever, I really just smoked when I had weed, and I only bought about twice a month, but I mainly smoke with a buddy of mine and when he became a pretty heavy smoker he would always come over and share bowls with me, so I, in turn, became a semi over weight smoker. Anyway, I loved weed. Took away all of my anxiety, made me happy, allowed me to chill out and have fun etc....but after taking a little break (couple of weeks), I smoked again with a friend of my brothers. He had a small bong but a bowl piece that could hold about .5 grams, and I wiped the whole bowl out in one hit. Which wasn't that big of a deal, until I did the same thing immediately after. I'm used to brown weed grown in a shitty climate, and the weed he had (in a great climate + plus different area and dealer) was something that I was not prepared for. I was ripped, I mean absolutely ripped. I got extremely high, and then just kind of curled back into my own thoughts and started having some extremely vivid and violent images appear. For about an hour I obsessed over them (cannabis's nature) and really had a bad time. I never freaked out or anything, but I really hated the images. After the high wore off I stopped smoking again for about a week and then continued to smoke as normal without any problems, but then the exact same images started to appear, granted they were in my head and not hallucinations, but I couldn't get them out of my head. Now, every time I smoke they appear again. I've stopped smoking completely and intend to continue without it. I can take substances that are well known to cause anxiety, such as Adderall (I take as precribed unless I have extras and then I take around 30mg-40mg just to get a boost and slight euphoria, Kratom I have no problems with, Opiates I have no problem with, although they're not known to commonly cause anxiety, and pretty much everything else I can think of I'm fine with, but weed I can't handle. I see things like massive objects crushing me, or my toe nails being ripped off, etc......And sometimes if the strain is good and euphoric, I think there are things running up and down the inside of my spine and I can feel them moving. I was jus wondering if anyone else has had any experiences like this? I understand that weed is known to induce psychosis if the given person is vulnerable to it, and while i don't experience these thoughts when sober, I don't ever want to and that is my reasoning for quitting. Anything shared will be greatly appreciated.
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