Hello all, been browsing the internet lately looking for help.
Been on this site a few times, but hadn't considered joining until today. My post will go over a bit of back story, but my questions are primarily about psychedelics.
*condensed question *
Can Psychedelics help with:
•mental illnesses
•suicidal thoughts, tendencies
•lack of motivation
•Cognitive impairment
I hope I'm posting this in the right place, if not, please advise and I'll delete, or whatever.
Okay so I'll try and keep this as short as possible, but I am very fragmented, and find it hard to compile all of my thoughts.
I've been an alcoholic to some extent for the last 4 years while I had been active duty Military, during my time in my undiagnosed ADHD has become debilitating to the point I could not function, I have been on Adderall for the last year (1 10mg ir & 1 20mg xr).
It has helped, but I have been looking for a solution, not a bandaid.
I quit drinking a little over 2 months ago, and have been experimenting with shrooms, my intent is to possibly get to the bottom of my misery. I've been borderline suicidal for the better part of 18 years, (I am now a mid 30's male)but have never really made an attempt, I want to get better, but I know my head isn't what most would say is normal. Any time I am not doing a task my mind starts to mull over things and nearly always leads me to thoughts about ending it.
I know I could be happy, but hardwork, and perseverance isn't going to cut it.
I've tried multiple careers, and even the military. No one knows me, and I have no interest in talking to "professionals " anymore. I've been on so many different drugs for depression, and anxiety, but they only ever made matters worse.
At this point, my life is the worst, and also the best it's ever been.
I have a house, an amazing dog, my bills are kept in check.
I have plenty of opportunities financially speaking, but I am dead inside, I don't know who I am, what I want, or anything.
Every day it gets harder to find the motivation to get out of bed, or do simple tasks, I feel like I'm becoming locked inside my head even.
I went through a lot as a kid, and never got any treatment, I suspect many of my issues stem from it.
I know there is no simple fix for fucked, but I keep hearing of things like metaprogramming while using Ketamine and stuff.
I haven't really managed to pull myself to taking a large enough dose of shrooms to actually trip. I figured I would try "microdosing", but I have taken doses high enough to inspire some very constructive thought, and even see some very fascinating patterns when my eyes are shut.
I believe I have nothing to lose by trying something a bit stronger, but I think I have control issues, making it difficult to be vulnerable during a trip.
Any tips on letting go?
Seriously, if you managed to read this to the end, you have earned a lot of good karma!
I know my writing is extremely difficult to het though, it's not easy for me to write.
Been on this site a few times, but hadn't considered joining until today. My post will go over a bit of back story, but my questions are primarily about psychedelics.
*condensed question *
Can Psychedelics help with:
•mental illnesses
•suicidal thoughts, tendencies
•lack of motivation
•Cognitive impairment
I hope I'm posting this in the right place, if not, please advise and I'll delete, or whatever.
Okay so I'll try and keep this as short as possible, but I am very fragmented, and find it hard to compile all of my thoughts.
I've been an alcoholic to some extent for the last 4 years while I had been active duty Military, during my time in my undiagnosed ADHD has become debilitating to the point I could not function, I have been on Adderall for the last year (1 10mg ir & 1 20mg xr).
It has helped, but I have been looking for a solution, not a bandaid.
I quit drinking a little over 2 months ago, and have been experimenting with shrooms, my intent is to possibly get to the bottom of my misery. I've been borderline suicidal for the better part of 18 years, (I am now a mid 30's male)but have never really made an attempt, I want to get better, but I know my head isn't what most would say is normal. Any time I am not doing a task my mind starts to mull over things and nearly always leads me to thoughts about ending it.
I know I could be happy, but hardwork, and perseverance isn't going to cut it.
I've tried multiple careers, and even the military. No one knows me, and I have no interest in talking to "professionals " anymore. I've been on so many different drugs for depression, and anxiety, but they only ever made matters worse.
At this point, my life is the worst, and also the best it's ever been.
I have a house, an amazing dog, my bills are kept in check.
I have plenty of opportunities financially speaking, but I am dead inside, I don't know who I am, what I want, or anything.
Every day it gets harder to find the motivation to get out of bed, or do simple tasks, I feel like I'm becoming locked inside my head even.
I went through a lot as a kid, and never got any treatment, I suspect many of my issues stem from it.
I know there is no simple fix for fucked, but I keep hearing of things like metaprogramming while using Ketamine and stuff.
I haven't really managed to pull myself to taking a large enough dose of shrooms to actually trip. I figured I would try "microdosing", but I have taken doses high enough to inspire some very constructive thought, and even see some very fascinating patterns when my eyes are shut.
I believe I have nothing to lose by trying something a bit stronger, but I think I have control issues, making it difficult to be vulnerable during a trip.
Any tips on letting go?
Seriously, if you managed to read this to the end, you have earned a lot of good karma!
I know my writing is extremely difficult to het though, it's not easy for me to write.