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- Nov 9, 2021
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Hello everyone. To start off, i have to go a few days without my aderall at the end of each month. And i can not function without it. I was crying so bad today at work and i had a mental breakdown and i felt so out of it. I am not abusing my meds the pharmacy just wont have it ready on time, they wont tell me when it is filled, when my dad picks up my other meds we thinl the aderall is with it but its fucking not, etc. I cant keep doimg this i really cant.
Onetime i called the pharmacy and they said they gave it to us but they did not. How can a pharmacy be so fucking carless? And they dont give me a shit ton of aderall at a time because its a narcotic, which i understand i guess, and they give me a shit ton of my other meds all the time.
Im not gonna lie i have thought about getting high off aderall before but i never have done so intentionally and it isnt a problem at all. The problem is i keep running out of aderall at the end of each month. Its fucking ridiculous.
I had a mental breakdown today. And my coworker gave me one of her aderalls, which is 5 more mg than what i take, and so i felt high but better than i was before that.
Sorry for ranting, but ive had a real shitty past few days. I work at a busy restaraunt and i should not have to feel like a hot mess at the end of each month. The aderall really helps, i dont want to switch meds, what should i do?
Edit: also since im on here, i have really bad anxiety, depression, and ocd. It affects me at work really bad. I think customers and coworkers are laughing at me and think im lazy and no good and real shitty and spoiled. I hate myself so much. The truth is i think im all of those but everyone tells me im not. I work so hard every time i go to work but it never feels like its enough. I literally put my blood, sweat, and tears into work, im not joking. I was doing so well for awhile but im falling apart now.
Onetime i called the pharmacy and they said they gave it to us but they did not. How can a pharmacy be so fucking carless? And they dont give me a shit ton of aderall at a time because its a narcotic, which i understand i guess, and they give me a shit ton of my other meds all the time.
Im not gonna lie i have thought about getting high off aderall before but i never have done so intentionally and it isnt a problem at all. The problem is i keep running out of aderall at the end of each month. Its fucking ridiculous.
I had a mental breakdown today. And my coworker gave me one of her aderalls, which is 5 more mg than what i take, and so i felt high but better than i was before that.
Sorry for ranting, but ive had a real shitty past few days. I work at a busy restaraunt and i should not have to feel like a hot mess at the end of each month. The aderall really helps, i dont want to switch meds, what should i do?
Edit: also since im on here, i have really bad anxiety, depression, and ocd. It affects me at work really bad. I think customers and coworkers are laughing at me and think im lazy and no good and real shitty and spoiled. I hate myself so much. The truth is i think im all of those but everyone tells me im not. I work so hard every time i go to work but it never feels like its enough. I literally put my blood, sweat, and tears into work, im not joking. I was doing so well for awhile but im falling apart now.