My partner and I indulged in some MDMA yesterday – one 120mg gel cap each. I have rolled five times previously on the same stuff – good clean stuff it is too - waiting 2 -3 months between rolls. I have had good experiences but the side effects seem to get more pronounced each time, particularly muscle tension.
This time, because I was troubled by nausea and dry retching once before, I decided to plug the MDMA, dissolving the crystals from the gel cap in 15mls of hot water, drawing it up in a small syringe (minus the needle, obviously) and with my partner’s help, inserting it into my rectum which had been totally cleared of poop with a bulb enema. Then I swallowed the empty gel caps, swilled a bit of water around the cup I had dissolved the crystals in and swallowed that too. My partner did the same.
The come-up arrived after about 20 mins and was very sudden. The body feel was almost overwhelming, much more intense than swallowing the same caps on previous occasions. We knew this might happen so we were well-prepared. We were sitting in a nice, private secure spot with a beautiful view and had sunscreen, soft drink and munchies and everything we thought we might need for several hours with us. But not a bathroom. I wasn't too worried about that because my past experience was that I wouldn't need to pee for several hours.
I peaked at about 2 hours. Round about that time I felt the urge to defecate, which was awkward as I had to scramble down a steep, slippery bank to get to the house. As soon as I stood up I realised to my horror that it was too late. I had pooped my pants. And not just a little bit. This was a total shock. I had not felt it happening. There had been no stomach cramps.
I spent so long cleaning myself up that my partner got worried and came looking for me. Dealing with practical problems like that when I was peaking was difficult to say the least. However, the MDMA mitigated some of the shame, and there was no anxiety. There was no nausea and I was congratulating myself that the plugging had solved that problem, anyway.
While I was in the bathroom I looked in the mirror and was surprised by my aroused appearance. My eyes were staring and wild with fully dilated pupils. My heart rate was 120bpm (and stayed like that for hours) and I was hyperventilating and couldn’t stop. My neck muscles were tense, I had the usual jaw tightness and my whole body was buzzing.
The come down started at about 4 hours. At nine hours I was still rolling at bit – and was a bit stoned too having had a hit of my partner’s weed. By then I was feeling cold, tired, nauseated and generally unwell, and had a stiff neck and a tension headache.
Over the day I drank about 1 litre of soft drink and ate several strawberries and a few gummy snakes. We didn’t do anything physical except some gentle walking.
I slept quite well and woke with a headache (for which I took panadol) and have fairly typical ‘come-down’ symptoms which I’m not too worried about. BUT I have nausea which I haven’t had before on come-down. Damn.
I am paranoid about making an exhibition of myself at the best of times and don’t feel comfortable in public when on drugs when I can’t act straight if necessary – and judging by my appearance in the mirror that would have been totally impossible. The thought that if we had decided to go for a walk along the road that I might have been incontinent of feces in a public place totally horrified me. Dry retching or vomiting would be bad enough. Pooping your pants – noooooo! I will NOT be plugging MDMA again, certainly not at that dose which I think is probably at the top end of the range for someone my size (60kg and a fairly slight build). In fact, I will probably leave MDMA alone for quite a while because apart from the negative effects I am definitely losing the magic.
At first I thought that the rectal administration had stimulated my bowel directly. But now I doubt it. It wasn’t delivered high enough up my digestive tract for that. My guess now is that the plugging delivered the dose to my nervous system in one big hit and the physical sensations were so overwhelming that I didn’t notice what was happening with my bowels until it was too late.
That's my best guess but I would like to hear from others. Has anyone else experienced this, or can anyone explain what happened? I have rolled five times previously and never had any problem with my bowels before.
A bit more about me. I am ... er, not young. I have had chronic fatigue syndrome for many years and have irritable bowel syndrome related to food sensitivities, particularly to many vegetables, fruits and pulses. My bowel function is normal if I stay away from those foods and incontinence has never been a problem. I am also sensitive to amines and glutamates, but these don’t cause digestive problems – just fatigue, headaches, brain fog, low mood.
I seem to be quite susceptible to drugs generally. For alcohol two G&Ts is about my limit. Marijuana is good in small quantities for sex but at other times can make me irritable and paranoid. I’ve tried LSD twice – once when I was 19 and the second time was a few months ago and I adored it.
This time, because I was troubled by nausea and dry retching once before, I decided to plug the MDMA, dissolving the crystals from the gel cap in 15mls of hot water, drawing it up in a small syringe (minus the needle, obviously) and with my partner’s help, inserting it into my rectum which had been totally cleared of poop with a bulb enema. Then I swallowed the empty gel caps, swilled a bit of water around the cup I had dissolved the crystals in and swallowed that too. My partner did the same.
The come-up arrived after about 20 mins and was very sudden. The body feel was almost overwhelming, much more intense than swallowing the same caps on previous occasions. We knew this might happen so we were well-prepared. We were sitting in a nice, private secure spot with a beautiful view and had sunscreen, soft drink and munchies and everything we thought we might need for several hours with us. But not a bathroom. I wasn't too worried about that because my past experience was that I wouldn't need to pee for several hours.
I peaked at about 2 hours. Round about that time I felt the urge to defecate, which was awkward as I had to scramble down a steep, slippery bank to get to the house. As soon as I stood up I realised to my horror that it was too late. I had pooped my pants. And not just a little bit. This was a total shock. I had not felt it happening. There had been no stomach cramps.
I spent so long cleaning myself up that my partner got worried and came looking for me. Dealing with practical problems like that when I was peaking was difficult to say the least. However, the MDMA mitigated some of the shame, and there was no anxiety. There was no nausea and I was congratulating myself that the plugging had solved that problem, anyway.
While I was in the bathroom I looked in the mirror and was surprised by my aroused appearance. My eyes were staring and wild with fully dilated pupils. My heart rate was 120bpm (and stayed like that for hours) and I was hyperventilating and couldn’t stop. My neck muscles were tense, I had the usual jaw tightness and my whole body was buzzing.
The come down started at about 4 hours. At nine hours I was still rolling at bit – and was a bit stoned too having had a hit of my partner’s weed. By then I was feeling cold, tired, nauseated and generally unwell, and had a stiff neck and a tension headache.
Over the day I drank about 1 litre of soft drink and ate several strawberries and a few gummy snakes. We didn’t do anything physical except some gentle walking.
I slept quite well and woke with a headache (for which I took panadol) and have fairly typical ‘come-down’ symptoms which I’m not too worried about. BUT I have nausea which I haven’t had before on come-down. Damn.
I am paranoid about making an exhibition of myself at the best of times and don’t feel comfortable in public when on drugs when I can’t act straight if necessary – and judging by my appearance in the mirror that would have been totally impossible. The thought that if we had decided to go for a walk along the road that I might have been incontinent of feces in a public place totally horrified me. Dry retching or vomiting would be bad enough. Pooping your pants – noooooo! I will NOT be plugging MDMA again, certainly not at that dose which I think is probably at the top end of the range for someone my size (60kg and a fairly slight build). In fact, I will probably leave MDMA alone for quite a while because apart from the negative effects I am definitely losing the magic.
At first I thought that the rectal administration had stimulated my bowel directly. But now I doubt it. It wasn’t delivered high enough up my digestive tract for that. My guess now is that the plugging delivered the dose to my nervous system in one big hit and the physical sensations were so overwhelming that I didn’t notice what was happening with my bowels until it was too late.
That's my best guess but I would like to hear from others. Has anyone else experienced this, or can anyone explain what happened? I have rolled five times previously and never had any problem with my bowels before.
A bit more about me. I am ... er, not young. I have had chronic fatigue syndrome for many years and have irritable bowel syndrome related to food sensitivities, particularly to many vegetables, fruits and pulses. My bowel function is normal if I stay away from those foods and incontinence has never been a problem. I am also sensitive to amines and glutamates, but these don’t cause digestive problems – just fatigue, headaches, brain fog, low mood.
I seem to be quite susceptible to drugs generally. For alcohol two G&Ts is about my limit. Marijuana is good in small quantities for sex but at other times can make me irritable and paranoid. I’ve tried LSD twice – once when I was 19 and the second time was a few months ago and I adored it.
