AnonUser98
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Hi, so basically I've rarely smoked weed. I've done it like 5 times properly over the course of 2 years. So I'm NOT addicted nor was I ever a regular user.
About 3 months ago nearly, 25th of January I had purchased a vape and decided to try it, note at this point the last time I smoked was on new years eve and I had a bit of anxiety whilst being high but it was still very very pleasant experience.
So without going off-topic, I went outside that morning at 9-10am in my garage and was sitting down with a bit of paranoia of being caught and anxiousness to begin with. I put it on 190-200c and I cant remember but I had 10-15 hits so It was quite a lot, I was using it for around 3-4 minutes and then turned it off and went inside. Suddenly I felt like I couldn't control my own body and was walking down and up in my own house with a very unpleasant out of body experience. It was not synthetic it was very powerful. About 1 hour in I started getting paranoid that my heart was beating too quickly, I looked in the mirror and my face was very pale and this is when I started getting panicky. I eventually told my dad what I had done and I started panicking soo much that I was dry reaching and couldn't breathe properly. This was going on for the entire day and that night I went to bed I was having extremely vivid dreams that I was smoking again. I wouldn't even want to sleep in the first place because I thought I would die. 2 days in I still had it and eventually told my mum, she was supportive of me though. I ended up going to the hospital 2 days later because I would get episodes of panicking and not being able to breathe. I was prescribed a light dosage of Valium and was taking that for the next 2-3 days which helped me a bit. Now my memory is really fuzzy now but basically ever since then like I've been okay but I've had a couple smaller panicking episodes so the physical part of it has stopped but I've had major derealization ever since then and everything seems fake to me. I think though as time goes on everything is slower getting better but my paranoia has climbed out of control I literally thought 2 weeks after that incident that something was wrong with me like throat cancer, testicular torsion, brain swelling and the list goes on. Sometimes things feel 2D and I just over think everything now. I just want it to end because I've never done anything besides weed and drink alcohol. Mind I'm only 18 and don't want to end up in a psychiatric hospital. I haven't touched weed since that day and never will again. I believe I might have a pre-disposition to becoming like that though because my dad has schizophrenia and has had some bad experiences with drugs but I think he's done other things and consumed cannabis on a daily basis. I don't really know whats wrng with me to be honest but I thought I might say it here.
About 3 months ago nearly, 25th of January I had purchased a vape and decided to try it, note at this point the last time I smoked was on new years eve and I had a bit of anxiety whilst being high but it was still very very pleasant experience.
So without going off-topic, I went outside that morning at 9-10am in my garage and was sitting down with a bit of paranoia of being caught and anxiousness to begin with. I put it on 190-200c and I cant remember but I had 10-15 hits so It was quite a lot, I was using it for around 3-4 minutes and then turned it off and went inside. Suddenly I felt like I couldn't control my own body and was walking down and up in my own house with a very unpleasant out of body experience. It was not synthetic it was very powerful. About 1 hour in I started getting paranoid that my heart was beating too quickly, I looked in the mirror and my face was very pale and this is when I started getting panicky. I eventually told my dad what I had done and I started panicking soo much that I was dry reaching and couldn't breathe properly. This was going on for the entire day and that night I went to bed I was having extremely vivid dreams that I was smoking again. I wouldn't even want to sleep in the first place because I thought I would die. 2 days in I still had it and eventually told my mum, she was supportive of me though. I ended up going to the hospital 2 days later because I would get episodes of panicking and not being able to breathe. I was prescribed a light dosage of Valium and was taking that for the next 2-3 days which helped me a bit. Now my memory is really fuzzy now but basically ever since then like I've been okay but I've had a couple smaller panicking episodes so the physical part of it has stopped but I've had major derealization ever since then and everything seems fake to me. I think though as time goes on everything is slower getting better but my paranoia has climbed out of control I literally thought 2 weeks after that incident that something was wrong with me like throat cancer, testicular torsion, brain swelling and the list goes on. Sometimes things feel 2D and I just over think everything now. I just want it to end because I've never done anything besides weed and drink alcohol. Mind I'm only 18 and don't want to end up in a psychiatric hospital. I haven't touched weed since that day and never will again. I believe I might have a pre-disposition to becoming like that though because my dad has schizophrenia and has had some bad experiences with drugs but I think he's done other things and consumed cannabis on a daily basis. I don't really know whats wrng with me to be honest but I thought I might say it here.