shardsandstrips
Greenlighter
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- May 13, 2017
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Well, it's not really my very first time, but five days ago was the first time in over 11 years that I used meth. I've been mostly substance free for the past four years and on suboxone that entire time (18 mg/day currently) for opiate addiction. The meth use started five days ago with smoking and slamming, and after the first day I have only slammed it, about twice per day. I'm guessing I've used about 1.5 grams the entire time. Except for the first night, I've slept (very well in fact, as I always do ever since being on subs) every night. I took seroquel last night (25 mg) because I knew I wanted to stop today and learned here that it can help the comedown.
It's now been over 24 hours since my last meth use, and I actually don't feel too bad--a little tired and mildly depressed, but I've been working (writing, research, etc.) all day and in fact was able to do so all week. I did notice that the meth high, while good (the stuff seems pretty pure, very white with nice clear shards/crystals), seems less "dramatic" or less "sharp" than 11 years ago. I still experienced teeth grinding, but I was very focused, not speaking rapidly at all and able to interact with people who know me with no paranoia and without them seemingly noticing anything.
Here is my question: am I just lucky and won't have too much trouble coming down this time, possibly because of the Suboxone taking the edge off? Or has it just not been long enough, and I should expect to start feeling like hell in another 12-24 hours?
The agony of the depression 11 years ago honestly kept me away from it all this time, and I feel pretty confident that I'm not going to use it again for a long time, but I need to know what to expect because I have a lot of obligations coming in the next several days.
Many thanks in advance!
It's now been over 24 hours since my last meth use, and I actually don't feel too bad--a little tired and mildly depressed, but I've been working (writing, research, etc.) all day and in fact was able to do so all week. I did notice that the meth high, while good (the stuff seems pretty pure, very white with nice clear shards/crystals), seems less "dramatic" or less "sharp" than 11 years ago. I still experienced teeth grinding, but I was very focused, not speaking rapidly at all and able to interact with people who know me with no paranoia and without them seemingly noticing anything.
Here is my question: am I just lucky and won't have too much trouble coming down this time, possibly because of the Suboxone taking the edge off? Or has it just not been long enough, and I should expect to start feeling like hell in another 12-24 hours?
The agony of the depression 11 years ago honestly kept me away from it all this time, and I feel pretty confident that I'm not going to use it again for a long time, but I need to know what to expect because I have a lot of obligations coming in the next several days.
Many thanks in advance!