yay, ididnt realise it was so long ago i said that. ifelt embarassed, i had some false starts and binges, im on my way from misery to happiness aha ha whatever!
ive been doing lil stretches but i think im on the right path.
using my herbs, 10 ml of meth every other day, or 2 poppy pods.
blondin, yer an inspiration, all me ole mates from before.
for sure, the anxiety goes thru the roof. i become very manic and wild. thank fully, cos ive dealt with a lot of the bad shit ive done and had done to me im laughing thru it mostly, but its very hard to sit still and settle. i just remind myself that its absolutely normal and will pass, nights and days are very long, but im on the road now.
anxiety, isnt that what the gear takes away and why a certain kind of bod does be into the h? any other time ive turned to a bit of crack for the sake of something , thats no good for anxiety, tho its more likely a route to the self harm and i dont deserve a good life m,entality. ive done the drink and ive reached the stage where i can feel alcohol really poisoning me and thats even on a half or a piint! im not even abusin the soft drugs, and im rarely on the internet.
i did significant thing after dealer gave me a half price bag and a free one last week, smoked half and sent the rest down the river near spaghetti junction. i did a deal and its all good.
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