Aight, after taking 24mg of lopermide/high dose Vitamin C/Nexium last night, I made it to the 28 hour mark at noon today. In which I had to contact one of my employees (I'm a contractor) to come to the job site I was on & drive me to my spot to score .5 of boi, because I literally felt like I was about to literally DIE. I slammed .02 of boi & .02 of ICE like us Southern Whiteboys do.Thank God this employee is a friend/roommate of mine who understands addiction due to his own use of ICE for 10+ years & I didn't have to expose any of my other employees, clients & business contacts to my situation. Like all of us, I've dealt with DS a thousand times, but I haven't had to come even close to WD's since I've been making sure I always have at least a half G or G in the ole' toolbox so I wouldn't run out.
This morning before work, I took 50mg of lopermide & it did absolutely nothing. I was in excruciating deep joint/bone pain, headache, total lack of concentration, temper to feeling like my damn skin was being ate away by Hydrofluoric Acid. It fucking sucked. I don't know if LOPE didn't work for me due to my high tolerance or my dosage was incorrect or WTF. All I know is, it may be great for some people & that's fucking awesome, but the shit didn't work out for me. Maybe one-day soon, I can enroll in health insurance before the cut off date & go to a extensive inpatient rehab somewhere & finally be done with this shit.
In 2012, I was sentenced to 48 months in the Florida Dept Of Corrections due to my heroin addiction. After my release in 2016, I started a painting company in Florida. Everything has been going great, business has flourished. I was clean for about a year, but after climbing extension ladders all day, I needed something for pain, so I picked up a bag of Kratom. I took it a few months, then one day i copped some H & it's been wide ass open ever since son. I think I'm keeping my business/priorities in check, but I'm sure I'm slippin' in some areas. In Florida, the recitivism rate in the first 3 years of release is 87%. Can you fucking believe that shit! I'm proud that I made it past that point and not end up a stat, but it's my biggest fear to get cased up again & get back on that blue bird & go back down that road, only next time, they'll give me 10 years & that I cannot accept. One day at a time I guess, I'm just going to keep working hard, try to help people, pay shit forward & hang out with my 3 year old black Labrador named BO & grill a Ribeye every chance I get. Deuces.