JonnyDeath
Bluelighter
- Joined
- May 1, 2014
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I don't want to get into significant details because of the names of the people involved being point blank, some of the most famous women on earth, but at this point in all my crummy experiences with what they've done to me, I've had to speculate on what I'm being dosed with.
Sometimes I wake up and pretty much remember all of it, other times it's bits and pieces and the same sickening feeling from knowing they got me again. Whatever they've given me, it doesn't last but for a few hours without reapplying it, and sometimes the memories are vague, other times I have total recall and unfortunately, sometimes I'm the one initiating the sex with these women because of who they are and the dream like state I am in.
What has been a common trend is drugging me, waking me up right away so I'm still fully cognitive and being kissed and groped by these women, and then the "SHHHHHHHHH" like feeling and euphoria gradually washes over me, and even if making my own decisions in some regards, under their control.,
I had never taken xanax until a few years ago for the insomnia this has all caused, and as soon as I took was 100% certain it was a drug that had been used. I'm assuming it's often an anesthesia and downer like fentanyl. The euphoria is overwhelming, I get lost in it as it increases intensity, then wake up where within a few minutes, I'll recall most of what happened and literally have to get in the shower to scrub the odor of a woman that took it "bareback" from me that morning or late night before.
Just WTH could they be using that is short acting but is effective at suppressing memories?
In terms of it being real, that's an easy one. They steal things and break things right in front of me, and the following day as soon as I look, these things are gone or broken. I also wake up with blatant injection marks sometimes.
It's a very bizarre, twisted and long story that spans over 2 decades but I kept it to myself for over 20 years because of who it is and my brother is a hugely powerful casting director in film and television hired by every major network, studio, director and producer on all the most popular film and television projects. He casts the zombies for most the walking dead shows pulling 18 grand a month without ever having to set foot on set and casting directors he employs out in the field.
I don't want to wander into the psychological ramifications and damage it's done to me and my relationships with family, I just want an idea of what is being used on me. One question one of these women often asked me in private messages was "have you ever done ketamine?" which I have and could clearly recall being high on it during this sexploitation, and other times being given what looked like an oxie or other opiate combined with whatever, and being overwhelmed with shame when this mentally ill and world famous woman said, "don't you want to get high before we have sex?" to then have a literally mob of women with varying levels of fame in various divisions of entertainment including the pinup model industry.
It's happened now in the hundreds of times, but the time I'm describing 15 years ago I can remember being very cognitive and ashamed of myself because I wanted to take the pill, refused but it was ultimately shoved down my throat.
I don't expect to be believed in the least even though I could prove this all at legal depth if I truly wanted to pursue it, but I don't want to be known for this, I just want it to stop.
Sometimes I wake up and pretty much remember all of it, other times it's bits and pieces and the same sickening feeling from knowing they got me again. Whatever they've given me, it doesn't last but for a few hours without reapplying it, and sometimes the memories are vague, other times I have total recall and unfortunately, sometimes I'm the one initiating the sex with these women because of who they are and the dream like state I am in.
What has been a common trend is drugging me, waking me up right away so I'm still fully cognitive and being kissed and groped by these women, and then the "SHHHHHHHHH" like feeling and euphoria gradually washes over me, and even if making my own decisions in some regards, under their control.,
I had never taken xanax until a few years ago for the insomnia this has all caused, and as soon as I took was 100% certain it was a drug that had been used. I'm assuming it's often an anesthesia and downer like fentanyl. The euphoria is overwhelming, I get lost in it as it increases intensity, then wake up where within a few minutes, I'll recall most of what happened and literally have to get in the shower to scrub the odor of a woman that took it "bareback" from me that morning or late night before.
Just WTH could they be using that is short acting but is effective at suppressing memories?
In terms of it being real, that's an easy one. They steal things and break things right in front of me, and the following day as soon as I look, these things are gone or broken. I also wake up with blatant injection marks sometimes.
It's a very bizarre, twisted and long story that spans over 2 decades but I kept it to myself for over 20 years because of who it is and my brother is a hugely powerful casting director in film and television hired by every major network, studio, director and producer on all the most popular film and television projects. He casts the zombies for most the walking dead shows pulling 18 grand a month without ever having to set foot on set and casting directors he employs out in the field.
I don't want to wander into the psychological ramifications and damage it's done to me and my relationships with family, I just want an idea of what is being used on me. One question one of these women often asked me in private messages was "have you ever done ketamine?" which I have and could clearly recall being high on it during this sexploitation, and other times being given what looked like an oxie or other opiate combined with whatever, and being overwhelmed with shame when this mentally ill and world famous woman said, "don't you want to get high before we have sex?" to then have a literally mob of women with varying levels of fame in various divisions of entertainment including the pinup model industry.
It's happened now in the hundreds of times, but the time I'm describing 15 years ago I can remember being very cognitive and ashamed of myself because I wanted to take the pill, refused but it was ultimately shoved down my throat.
I don't expect to be believed in the least even though I could prove this all at legal depth if I truly wanted to pursue it, but I don't want to be known for this, I just want it to stop.
