I have been through 3 depressions in my life time. First of them I had when I was 15 and it ended at 20. The second one was at 23 and ended at 28. The Last one I had was at 34 to 36. So i have had many of those depressions, moderate to severe. Now without depression over 2 years, which is great and feels so good. I "only" have anxiety, paranoia and delusions, but no depression.
Those fuckers were hard to get over with, several medications did not help at all, just numbed me but not really helping. Camouflage the symptoms but did not treat the reason I had fallen in depression. Last time i had depression, i did not use any medications, only ketamine, benzos and psychedelics. I was in psychosis too, but it feels really different than being depressed. They are not similar at all.
I have decided that If I ever get depressed again, i will get a prescription to ketamine. And do psychedelics on my own. I hope I don't get depression ever again. So painful, sad and anhedonistic, empty and numb feeling all the time.