First time oxycodone = well on my way to opiate addiction?

[Lord]

I tried oxy for the first time yesterday, 12.5mg then 17.5mg, and again today, coming up on 25mg + mild potentiator.

This is probably the speed screwing up my thinking, but I liked everything about the Oxycodone. The nausea? Euphoric. Vomiting my guts out? Wonderful. Warmth and near-nod sensations? Fantastic.

I just love this drug... and I'm probably well on my way to developing an opiate addiction. When my supply runs out (as it will very soon), I think I'll have to use Kratom. But compared to Oxy, Kratom really seems like crap to me, and doesn't feel like nearly as much of a true opiate (I would know 8) ) as Oxy does.

While I kind of enjoy kratom (no more than alcohol), I can't help but think of Oxycodone as a new favourite. I always knew I was an opiate guy.

Sometimes the world is just great.

And what's this? 25mg is all I have today, but I feel an urge to increase the dose. This isn't strong enough... oh fuck. And it's only been 40 minutes.

Oxy is great and I love you all so much. %)

edit: yes, yes, I know it won't be so fun in the future! That didn't stop me from trying anything.
In fact, I may add a little something. It's probably best to stick with a similar drug, kratom sounds good. Or perhaps one beer or a touch of benzo.

 

[grumpy w00kie]

Do you want a pat on the back or something? You seem to know your going to be addicted anyways so great job!!!

 

[kokaino]

I wouldn't necessarily say you're "well on your way", but talking the way you are right now, I'd say yes you just may be on your way.

The first time I felt an opiate high was on 270 mg of codeine in tylenol #3's. I remember it was just absolutely beautiful. It was the greatest thing ever. I know you're probably thinking "codeine, what?" But my only previous opiate experience before that was 60 mg of codeine (twice), so 270mg of codeine was heaven at the time to me. Now, 11 years later I'm on 130 mg methadone/day for IV heroin and morphine addiction and no matter how much codeine I take it does nothing.

It has been a hellacious ride, I would suggest you stop now because right now you CAN STOP VERY EASILY! Trust me, an opiate habit is not fun. In the end we all end up the same - jail, institutions, or death - or in my case, methadone. So I'm still shackled by this addiction.

 

[Lord]

I wouldn't necessarily say you're "well on your way", but talking the way you are right now, I'd say yes you just may be on your way.

The first time I felt an opiate high was on 270 mg of codeine in tylenol #3's. I remember it was just absolutely beautiful. It was greatest thing ever. I know you're probably thinking "codeine, what?" But my only previous opiate experience before that was 60 mg of codeine (twice), so 270mg of codeine was heaven at the time to me. Now, 11 years later I'm on 130 mg methadone/day for IV heroin and morphine addiction and no matter how much codeine I take it does nothing.

It has been a hellacious ride, I would suggest you stop now!

My first ever attempted opiate high was 10 tylenol 3s. It wasn't really a high though. I know it'll be hell if I continue. But does that really change anything? I am starting to understand why opiate addiction can have such a strong pull.

 

[Lord]

Do you want a pat on the back or something? You seem to know your going to be addicted anyways so great job!!!

Thanks! Actually, I do want a pat on the back and a serious hug.

I knew the second I tried a real opiate I'd be on my way to addiction, but I did it anyway. So yes, I would like a 'congrats' from people who know just how good opiates are.

 

[Whipped Dream]

Opiates are great, but moderation in all things my man. Keep it up and pick one of the following options: jail, rehab, death. THERE IS NO OTHER OPTION. If you continue down the fast track to addiction you will end up throwing away everything you have to get that high.

Pull back on the reigns a bit and enjoy the high once in a while...in moderate doses.

 

[Lord]

Thanks whipped dream. It's decent advice but it'll be hard to follow. And suicide in a year is better than suicide now, I'm not dealing with life anymore and those who want to give me disrespect for it can go get a bullet to the brain. There are two options, AND ONLY TWO the way I see it:
- suicide
- drugs (basically, opiates)

 

[Whipped Dream]

Life on an addiction is still better than death. DO NOT KILL YOURSELF!!! Look into a support group, or seeing a therapist. Suicide is always the worst option. But still...be advised that if you continue to live a life high on drugs instead of offing yourself then you'll have a tough time keeping the police off your back. And good luck finding/keeping a job with a drug record.

Moderation WILL be tough, but try to find something else to occupy your time/thoughts between your highs.

 

[Lord]

Life on an addiction is still better than death. DO NOT KILL YOURSELF!!! Look into a support group, or seeing a therapist. Suicide is always the worst option. But still...be advised that if you continue to live a life high on drugs instead of offing yourself then you'll have a tough time keeping the police off your back. And good luck finding/keeping a job with a drug record.

Moderation WILL be tough, but try to find something else to occupy your time/thoughts between your highs.

I know the future will be pretty tough for me regardless of what happens. In a way I feel like I'm enjoying the real time I have left. In other words, once my parents die, once I need a job, once I need a diploma, etc... I think my 'real' and 'easy' life will be over by the time I'm 20, if not within a year (18 ). The other (up to) 60 years will probably consist of trudging through a fucked up, boring, and/or degenerating life much like this one, only more independent. Maybe this seems more than normal for you adults.

 

[BrokedownPalace]

^Dude, you think you're special or something in regards to having to get a job and go out on your own and survive and shit? You'd rather throw your life away to opiate addiction and then kill yourself so you don't have to work? And go through the same trials and tribulations that 99 percent of humans do? Us people in North America have it so fucking good compared to africans and nations who really are POOR. This is ridiculous. Are you FUCKING kidding me? I don't know you but judging my your fucking attitude I want to come put a bullet in your fucking knee caps so you can live with some REAL pain you little ignorant prick.

Sorry you can't just have a billion dollar trust fund and a bunch of servants to wash your ballsack and wipe your ass and feed you puree'd filet mignon with a silver spoon, all while shoving a fat syringe of dope in your vein every hour on the hour. I'm sure that's your ideal life, huh?

 

[Lord]

^Dude, you think you're special or something in regards to having to get a job and go out on your own and survive and shit? You'd rather throw your life away to opiate addiction then kill yourself so you don't have to work? And go through the same trials and tribulations that 99 percent of humans do? Us people in North America have it so fucking good compared to africans and nations who really are POOR. This is ridiculous. Are you FUCKING kidding me? I don't know you but judging my your fucking attitude I want to come put a bullet in your fucking knee caps so you can live with some REAL pain you little ignorant prick.

You have no idea what I went through. Calling me a prick while I'm drunk and high on opiates? Like I care!!! Those africans can go fuck themselves and starve to death.

 

[BrokedownPalace]

And you have no idea what I went through either in the past few years. Shooting dope all day CERTAINLY didn't make any of my problems any better. It honestly just makes it allll so much fucking worse than you can even imagine.

You'll see though, have a nice life.

 

[noob88]

Thanks! Actually, I do want a pat on the back and a serious hug.

I knew the second I tried a real opiate I'd be on my way to addiction, but I did it anyway. So yes, I would like a 'congrats' from people who know just how


I can tell by this comment you are really young. And we all used to think the same way, buy as we get older we all sing the same song about how we wished we didn't get so far down opiate road and you still got a whole life ahead of you be smart cause it supper hard to get off than it is to start just use in moderation once in while is great cause sooner than you expect euphoria disappears and it is about just being well and you lose the high respect the drug if you want to keep getting high then slow down cause once you pass a certain point the high goes away and that's where the real trouble starts. And it seems you just posted to get attention cause your not listening to the advice so if your gonna do what you want to do then why bother no one gonna congratulate you for messing up your life were trying to help you stop making a bad mistake like we did. Yeah its cool to get that feeling but slow down cause that feeling will stop and you won't get it back you will od trying to feel it again.

 

[kokaino]

Ok calm down people.

Brokedown, why the sudden rudeness to Lord?

He's obviously very young and inexperienced, something we ALL were at one time.

 

[noob88]

Ok calm down people.

Brokedown, why the sudden rudeness to Lord?

He's obviously very young and inexperienced, something we ALL were at one time.

I'm not being rude I'm just being honest everyone has tried to give him advice so he doesn't cause further harm to himself and he just shrugs it off we'll one person was was kind of a ass

 

[BrokedownPalace]

Yeah, and his elitist fucking attitude, like he is somehow 'better' than everyone and should be immune to going through the same things every other human do, really rubbed me the wrong way.

Maybe when I were younger and first dabbling in opiates, if I had someone to really get on my case, and show me some tough love, I wouldn't have ended up how I am. I don't want him to end up a hopeless dope fiend like half of us turned out, just because of his skewed sense of reality.

I dunno man. His posts just suddenly struck the wrong rib in me, and since he obviously doesn't give too shits about it, I knew he would reply how he did to me.

Another hopeless case of the typical whiny, ungrateful, modern N. american youth. The world/human civilization is royally fucked.

And it is a rare occasion that I actually get pissed off like this, especially on some message board, but sometimes I litteraly get pushed over the edge by some stupid shit like this. I am a huge proponent of harm reduction, and don't want ANYONE to have to go through the bullshit of opiate addiction if they don't have to. If my yelling at him knocked some sense into him (i doubt it), and ended up saving him from years of hell, then fine by me.

Otherwise, sorry I guess. I probably shouldn't have wasted my breath and been cursing so much at the poor soul.

 

[Whipped Dream]

I don't know you from Adam, and I ain't one to judge. Maybe you're repeatedly raped by your uncle, WTF do i know. All I'm sayin' is exercise a little bit caution and responsibility or you're asking for real trouble.

 

[Lord]

And you have no idea what I went through either in the past few years. Shooting dope all day CERTAINLY didn't make any of my problems any better. It honestly just makes it allll so much fucking worse than you can even imagine.

You'll see though, have a nice life.

Oh, don't worry. I know the truth about drugs. Yeah, opiates are great for you. LOL. it's for the better though, a worthless person taking themselves out of the gene pool... you and I both fit that bill.
And noob88, I do love my fair share of attention. Of course I don't listen to your advice. It's a DRUG, remember? Yeah I'll just be like everyone else and not do it. Fuck you, oxy rocks!

 

[BrokedownPalace]

I don't know you from Adam, and I ain't one to judge. Maybe you're repeatedly raped by your uncle, WTF do i know. All I'm sayin' is exercise a little bit caution and responsibility or you're asking for real trouble.

Yeah.. it's just like you think your life sucks now, but just WAIT until you're a full blown junky, living on the streets, commiting robberies, using your own piss to mix up a shot of dope.. Then tell me you don't wish you could go back to this day.

 

[Whipped Dream]

Yeah.. it's just like you think your life sucks now, but just WAIT until you're a full blown junky, living on the streets, commiting robberies, using your own piss to mix up a shot of dope.. Then tell me you don't wish you could go back to this day.

Very good point! Life's hard for everyone....make it a little easier by using some self restraint. Throwing caution to the wind with an opiate addiction is going to compound your problems X 1000.