So Agnosia, I'm genuinely curious. How does it feel to have an effectively unlimited supply of a strong dopamine substance like coke? Do you feel like you are in heaven on earth or have you adjusted and sure it's good but it comes with consequences and becomes a type of baseline?
It has been my experience and understanding that it's hard to find true heaven with drugs because high doses come with a variety of problems such as tolerance, dependence, health issues, fear of running out, etc.
Wow I'm not used to being asked such a nuanced, well thought out question. I will do my best to answer.
I've been doing drugs for 30 years, 15 of those were meth. During my meth days, I never left my house, and accomplished very little. My life is different than most other people because i was fortunate enough to work on wall st. during the dot com days and was able to retire at the age of 27. On meth i spent most days either hacking ( i created a swichboard and infrastructure to start a burner phone business, became a certified penetration tester and would get hired to try and break into corporate systems, etc...) So not a total waster. I neglected my health though, became obese and suffered a near fatal overdose at 40 years old ) I would have continued using meth but my cook was arrrested and cartel meth is dogshit.
I only tell you this because in colombia, even with unlimited amounts of pericho ( cocaine ) I am living a normal well balanced and healthy life. I train 6 days a week on my bicycle ( 20 hours a week ), have lost 40 pounds and am now have a normal bmi, i was able to get off my bp meds and my bp is now 110/70. I am a much happier person because unlike most people that don't live near the equator, where civilization began, I get plenty of vitamin D. Vitamin D is one of the most important vitamins your body needs and most people are defecient.
Even though i have acces to unlimited cocaine, it is very very very different than the stuff most people buy in the states. Smoking crack does not get me paranoid, but gives me the energy and confidence to go out and meet super hot colombiann girls. The shit makes me horny as fuck. The come down is mild. So i posted that my tolerance had me doing 5 grams a day but because the cocaine here is so different and after the gram 4 i no longer get high.... I am able to just fall asleep knowing that the next day, after doing my cycling, that first hit is gonna be fucking amazing. That would have never have happened with coke in the states. Never. I would go on 2-3 day long binges. I haven't missed a night of sleep here yet.
So I've only been living here one year I can say so far I feel much more in control of my habit, am a lot more social and go out almost every night, have met some good friends, and am just generally happier. The people here are very laid back -- when i first got here they would always say "tranquilo" to me - or to stay cool/calm down but i am now very chill.
I think most of this has to do with the drugs here and how pure they are. I stopped smoking pot in nyc because it made me paranoid as fuck but the locals insisted the pot they have is grown in the wild and there are no chemicals used to help them grow faster/indoors. So I bought a gram and was able to get through the entire gram and it just made me "tranquilo". It's the same type of pot I encountered in jamaica where i could smoke 8 blunts a day and it would just chill me out. No paranoia. Was still able to think clearly. Closest I can come to describing the feeling is like taking a xanax. So the coke here is the same. It does not make you fiend for more, it's just pure euphoria, energy, and horniness ( my favorite type of drug ). It also keeps me clear headed enough to be rational and stop when it no longer hits.
All in all i am very happy with my decision and don't think I will spiral into a meth type existence. All my life i thought i knew what coke was but the coke here is entirely a new drug for me. I never get anxious about running out because within a half hour i can have a buy kilo 24/7. Colombians are hard working people and the drug dealers are extremely professional and polite. Hope this answers your questions.
For those that love science this is a excellent historical analysis of vitamin starting from the evolution of people.
For at least 1.2 billion years, eukaryotes have been able to synthesize sterols and, therefore, can produce vitamin D when exposed to UV-B. Vitamin D endocrinology was established some 550 million years ago in animals, when the high-affinity nuclear receptor ...
www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov