glad to hear that you are alive. as far as I remember people have already been speculating about your fate... also you are blessed for having that kind of mother. show her lots of love and respect and change your ways.this is a double post from the social tripping thread but
yall be careful out there. I had been pushing myself too hard working. doing weed. alcohol kratom, prolly 4g 3 meo pcp in a few months . 500mg o pce was half done
I had been pushing myself too hard.Gettting kicked out wherever I live. Crashed my car.
I had been up for two days doing 3 meo pcp and i guess topped it off with more 3 meo and some o pce
I got lost in the sauce.... again. for like t'he fifth time.
I guess i came down to my moms room screaming "i'm alive i'm alive god fucking help me. she took me into her bed and held me. i thought i got sofar gone she was gone with me. she took pictures and videos of me I have no recolection off.
i just woke up at 4pm. i went to her room at 6am she tookthe day off to watch me. didn't call the cops or mental people.
i gave her my stash of psychs and dissos. Flushed it all. It would make someof yall cry the collection i had. But I am knocking on deaths door.
thank god she loves me andwill let me stay here and recover and get back to normal.
this is not a game and it could easily ruin your life
i didn't learn the first five times. i gave her my stash and she flushed it. sooo.
be careful. I love you all. she thinks meposting this is stupid, but you are the only type of people that understand me.
Im sticking to weeed and diclaz taper and kratom and thatsits. Im at the point where i change or die.
please listen and have some self control
RIP VORTECH
i love you all
she thinks meposting this is stupid
Should have sent them to me
I think I will sign up for a Strava acount to map my rides/mileage/speed etc. Does anyone else use Strava or know of a similiar/better app?
aight dogs
i'm mentally preparing myself for thursday night
if things go to plan, i will be having the craziest psychedelic experience i've ever had, well that is if it turns out to be like i imagine it will be
i got my L, green geltabs. I'll be taking 3 tabs, and i'll probably dose the L while ridin the metro to the club. I'll probably be not sober when i drop but i'm planning on ideally not getting too crazy with the quartz and probably dosing orally (after eating the L) in a gelcap, it'll be prob a quarter gram i'll take before walking up to go through security and i'd honestly probably be semi high all day that day as it is.
It'll be fun
I'm on Strava - it's great, really positive app. It super motivating to see your friends posting activities, makes you more motivated to get out there and do your own. Really good way to track your activities, mileage, progress, and see the activities on the map, check your pace, improve yourself etc. I really recommend getting on there! It's been a game changer for me.
There seem to be many other apps, but Strava is the king of the social aspect of these types of apps. There are others that are better for analytics on your activities.
Well.. Ive had a fun last 24 hours..
Last night at work at the end of my shift I was finishing my pick at the end of the night and I apparently blacked out fell over and "shook". I have no memory of this happening. A co worker saw me laying on the ground and went and told the supervisor and they called an ambulance. So I am walking out for my last break and there is an ambulance parked right in front. The paramedic calls me by name and asks if I am okay.
I sort of looked at him confused. He then goes we received a call you had fallen and were shaking. Flabbergasted. I am just staring at him like are you sure you have the right person? He just starts laughing and says yes I can see the goose egg on your head from the fall.
So I get shuttled to the ER. Still confused. I get there and they are taking tests and everything. So I am freaked out because I take benzos off and on and I am thinking I had a seizure because of it. Only thing that made sense at the time. After about 3 hours the DR says I dont think this was a seizure or brought on by any substance. I believe youve just been running on very little sleep for a long time and your body finally said "thats it, time for sleep".
i've been crying and alone all day and just needed to mention it somewhere. don't want to concern facebook with it.
i'm so fucking worried about my tests next week.
They sure are! People who arent aware of that sort of thing and ask me what's wrong around the time Lakia had passed(RIP bruv!)were all heavily confused. "So you didn't really know him?", "So you never met him?". Yeah so what?!? Just because you've met with someone IRL does not mean you know them....
Many of us have been there ourselves Yep too many of us!
TNW, I know it's hard but try to stay strong! You didn't deserve any of this and unfortunately that doesn't make it any better. Sometimes the battles you have to fight in this world are wrought with turmoil, pain, and personal loss. I know what happened to my legs definitely made me stronger at least. Never in a million years if you'd told me that a couple months before 2013 I'd be almost dead and not actually dead having to relearn how to walk again dealing with the most unreal pain with absolutely no pain meds, and not much support, I'd have told you that you were one wacked out smuck!
So I will take it a day at a time and try and improve my life. Sorry if I am using this thread as journal at the moment, just don't have anywhere else to vent really.
thanks guys and gals