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A couple years ago I heard the world's top Naturopathic doctor was working in Toronto. I had some family members go and see him. I dont have his name or any idea whether he's still there but I'm sure naturopathic 'medicine ' is popular enough there will be plenty of info on the web. You could be your own doc but watch out for interactions : some natural/ herbal remedies or supplements CAN DO some major damage if over-used or used in combination with certain pharmaceutical meds. I dunno the specifics but I know of ppl who have died from organ failure due to mixing natural meds n pharmaceuticals.

Just take your time at it. There's no rush....actually getting well Slowly is probably best.
 
Just like getting to know this girl I fancy slowly is probably best too.

I prefer railing 2c-d over doing good coke, and 2c-c over Mdma. No contest, to the point that I am no longer interested in those more destructive drugs. My experiences with 2c-x drugs so far have been phenomenal.

Man work is giving me so much shit, I just realized they called me out in front of the entire team for sleeping through a 330am shift because my alarm fucked up. It is their fault really for not implementing precautionary measures in advance as we wake up as messed up hours like this daily. Such as a second contact number, and making sure we have second alarms and stuff. Anyways, it's bullshit and I am subtly replying to the asian dude who pretends to be my friend but will try and get my fired to cover his ass in a heartbeat.

It just hit me that both my favourite musicians are deceased :_ (

Tom Searle from Architects died of cancer last year; Lil bo Peep died of a drug overdose about a month ago which to me was clearly a suicide. He had hydromorphone, oxycodone, oxymorphone, hydrocodone, and a lot of fentanyl and alprazolam in his system when he passed. He foreshadowed his early death in all his music, as if crying out for help. Dude needed support not those drugs. Chill guy, loved shrooms and spoke openly about how they are good for mental health and gave advice to people struggling from depression and stuff. Reminded me that I should be grateful for what I have no matter what.
 
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Hey BL, long time no see. I haven't logged in here after I put an end to my 3-MeO-PCP habit, it's been two years now.

Since then I've succumbed to daily drinking and occasional amphetamine use, what a waste. It appears my 3-MeO-PCP meltdowns and mindfucks resulted in long-term or permanent effect on my thought patterns as I'm still experiencing "delusions of reference" every day and often getting stuck obsessing over recurring and bothersome ideas about the nature of my existence. Interestingly amphetamine doesn't trigger or amplify any psychotic thoughts but rather soothes my mind. Hoping to sober up soon though, I'm a mess.

Vortech, so sad to hear about your condition. Stay strong <3
 
^Have you considered that perhaps you have some sort of attention deficit disorder? If amps actually help mellow you out, that may be the case. I've only ever seen them mellow people out who truly have ADD/ADHD.


Went to a fantastic concert by a psychedelic pop artist last night and had a fantastic time. I took 40mg 2C-C (which came up mega fast, had to ask my buddy to take my money and get me some beer to mellow out lol) and drank quite a bit. The opener was almost as good as the actual act, or at least my tripped out mind thought so; I was the only one in the crowd really shouting and getting excited at the end of songs heheh 8) 2C-C is so short that by the time the opener was done I was almost out of the visual stage :|. Ended up going out to a popular downtown college bar after the concert. Felt kinda old because the girls were clearly 21-22 in age range, but a cute one walked by me, looked me straight in the eyes, and tapped my dick with her hand on her way out... damn do I wish I was single sometimes :sus:

Anyways, good time, ended up calling in "sick" this morning for work, but I don't feel too bad 'cause I fucking hate my job and I'm not getting any kudo points even if I bust my ass there, so fuck it. Probably still shouldn't have drank so much, and gone anyways... but oh well, the experience was worth much more than a days wage at a slave job.
 
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LOL =D

Yeah some lady grabbed my ass at a show recently and when I looked at her she told me she couldn't help it because it was just there in front of her being tantalizing. Made me smile. :) Of course, us guys generally don't have to worry about being actually assaulted by women, so it's pretty easy to just see it as a compliment. There was no threat there.
 
That's cool I found it strange when girls started doing this kinda stuff to me. Closer to my 30's I noticed it when my personality changed from being a little pussy to that of a man... lol. I guess that explains it but I also pay attention a lot to my appearance. I get way more attention dressing like a fuckin skinrat (but healthy, I am a vegetarian and stuff now) fuckin punk than I ever did when I weighed 220lbs and hit the gym all the time. It is all in the mind. I particularly enjoy the subtle flirting cues; chatting with the girl at the candle shop about ornamental candles and infinity and everything whatever then as you leave I get a sneaky devilish little split second look that speaks volumes. That stuff is the hottest to me. I never act on it, I am single, I probably should but I am pretty much a burnout.

I tend to wait for chicks to ask me out, so I tend to wait a while:). This happened earlier this year and we have been on some lovely dates and really getting to know each other. Friendship and teamwork, figuring each other out just taking things painfully slow and now she is on vacation. Lucky for me I am oxy sick and feeling like SHIT so I'm too sick to miss her. Although I'd def love a nice hug from her right now lol. I don't get shit but I'm pretty sure I'm heading in the right direction if a foxy cutie asked me out and it ended up being a 15hour first date and she is very cautious about this kind of stuff. I am the same these days after getting fucked over a few times.

Fucking sick as fucking fuck that god forsaken oxycodone fucking fuck honestly it's the third day I feel like SHIT!!! I'm heading to the mall though and I have a special surprise for the dude at the tea store so I really hope he's in. He's my friend, gives me free tea every time so I am tipping him in a way that we will both find hilarious and as an inside joke. If he is in and the karmic forces are connecting us in that way tonight then it will be fucking ridiculously hilarious and really cheer me up. He's there every single time it's so weird so it would be SO weird if he's not there the one day I want to tip him for being a friend.

You think he know you but I know you the most girl... lol. Sick as fuck but can't help thinking about her just a little bit. Always got something promising on the go, never fuckin get anywhere lol. I don't get it. Girls clearly think I'm attractive because I get those more forward and overt things too... I just don't like those as much, I don't know how to react in time and I'm just a shy doper when it comes to that.

I hit withdrawal depression earlier. I don't want to talk about it because it was traumatic. I pretty much relived my whole entire life and put myself down for every mistake I have ever made until it brought me to tears. I railed some 2c-d and I am no longer really existing on the physical plane, so the extreme suffering is still there (right now, every nerve in my spine is burning alive subjectively) but the 2c-d definitely really helped. Might take some more before going to the mall lol.

The pink peony hair man styled as a damn mess chicks dig that shit LOL not really but the ones I do, do. I dress to attract the kinda girls I think I might like, and it's just who I am anyway that's not really the reason. Just the reason I am on the right track I'm comfortable with myself. I've just had chicks who tried to control how I look because I look pretty far out lol if there is such a thing (just not normal haha) and I HATED it like I've had band shirts from concerts thrown out, thank you cards posted on the wall from classes I taught that were really meaningful just torn them the fuck down. I can't be with someone who doesn't give a fuck what I do with my face... lol. hehehe. I am tripping a bit and rolled a joint for the mall. Like the chick I like on vacation used to model so she gets it's just me. Modelling is actually really hard to do if you think about it. Kind of like acting. I was just thinking about how she used to do that and she told me she needs to lose 30lbs all sad I'm like WTF you don't need to lose shit, she is this tiny little blonde thing lol.

I haven't had so much as a kiss since the summer but back then she was inviting me over for sleepovers all night and well... we didn't sleep very much unless that word is used in a different context. I am starting to get all pissy about it lol I want to make out with this girl next time I see her when she's back on vacation. Or I will be upset with her for making me waiting so damn fucking long.
 
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My girl used to be a nude figure model for artists. She said it was actually quite difficult. She had to hold a pose so long she almost passed out once.
 
That's crazy dude. The way I thought it would be hard is through emotional expression. If you have to look seductive, or silly, or cheerful... it is hard to do that naturally even alone, let alone surround by cameras. Since my hair won't be this way forever I tried taking a couple pics of it on break from guitar and it was so hard to do right. I've been into nature photography all autumn but this was so hard to do. Felt like a chick lol. Is the lighting right? Nah my eyes don't look right... I don't look happy enough I look awkward. Now I just look like a dumbass. I got one seductive one and one cheerful and hilarious one, just with my favourite pedal (Maxon analog delay... it is pink like my hair lol... just less vivid).

So I got some really nice photos of myself... I never really have any of these so it is nice to focus and actually try to be photogenic for once. Out of like 20 pictures I took, I could only bear looking at 2. Then I was chatting with my friend a bit about her modelling because she dyed her hair recently too and was like I'm trying to get the picture right and she was so frustrated. I didn't understand until it happened to me, but she had background wallpaper and stuff that matched the colour of her hair and her eyes. She is better at it haha and also way cuter than me. Well... that's debatable. I think I'm pretty cute. lol. She is a little fox though she wins and her personality is just adorable lovely girl. I can't speak for myself too much.

Just tripping as fuck on 2c-d right now it seriously took like 50% of my withdrawals away, notably the severe depression. I'm only on the third day so whatever I needed it. I also just took loperamide, as I've been on the verge of shitting myself all day. I don't want to shit myself at the mall haha. I got a gift certificate for Christmas which is pretty sweet I never really do too much shopping there. It's so frigid here that it's hard for me to walk outside in withdrawal so I roam around there tripping, exploring. Not really buying anything. But I have a gift certificate now for like 70 bucks so who knows? Something might catch my eye ; )
 
i hear the voices in my head
i swear to god it sounds like they're snoring
but if you're bored then you're boring
the agony and the irony are killing me
 
Yo what's up man? Why did you try to die today? What's been going on with you, I haven't seen you post in a good while. Why don't you tell us your recent story?
 
i havent been posting because ive been doing the whole recovery thing basically.
its funny i took my subs last night because i knew i wasnt going to make it if i didnt but i was still planning on ending it.
the whole thing in a nutshell is human cruelty basically, rather than export it i took it out on myself.
ill be scarred for life from this, i took the pics out because its nasty/deep
 
dude took fucking 2 hours but i got the girl.
its about gone.
funniest shit is those raver fucks who say methhead this methhead that (i quit months ago) would spend with me if i wanted to sell coke.
i dont even normally do that (i'm not cool enough) but i guarantee i can do that better thab them.
they dont knkw any dominicans.
 
Damn llama, take care man. Us mods can still see... I'm worried for you :( we still care about you here. You're never alone. Please don't forget that. Take it from someone who's had periods of attempted suicide, it's not worth it. I'm not religious or anything, but let the world take you when it's ready, I know for a fact there's many wonderful experiences for you to still have. I know it's hard but if you push through, there's always something better for you. Maybe it's time for you to move somewhere new if possible, or start up something in your life you've never done before; variety is the spice of life.

Love you <3 please don't go
 
Well tilotaled my car and I'm sick of like.

100mg etiz..
2-300mg flubromazala

50mg hydrocod
Bottle of whisky is that enough?


My benzo toleralce is tii high and I dilont have enuf opiea but if I Wai ill end up.committed by my family
 
Dude, please don't off yourself. Remember when you said you wanted to get away, start over somewhere else? You'll never know if things will get better if you kill yourself. And you mentioned some family members who would care. Well, they'll be devastated. Besides that, I care. <3
 
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