Thanks for the new thread timsul999.
I've been lurking for years, and this is my first post, mainly because now I have a reason for one; Kratom.
TL;DR: I'm going through Kratom withdrawl this very moment and am hoping my method, conjured up from various BL content will help with the process, and help others. Tapered down to 2g nightly, after dinner to combat the awful RLS so I can sleep.
Full Story:
I've been 8.5 months sober with the help of a well known program. Long story short, I drank daily for 10 years and heavily for 5. I came to terms with the fact that I'm an alcoholic (or addict, there's no distinction) and sought help from a program that I had no faith would work, but had nowhere else to turn. It worked, and my life so far has turned around completely.
I've had multiple surgeries from living a physical lifestyle and am generally in pain, although not terrible. Also, I always enjoyed opiates (scripts only) as my drug of choice. Had they been readily available, surely I'd be an addict. Never a desire to try the harder stuff. Because of my affinity for opiates (recreationally) and generalized pain, I tried Kratom. WOW. This stuff is a panacea. All the pain disappeared completely and I got that euphoria I enjoy so much, plus energy and relaxation. I tried multiple strains from multiple vendors in varying doses, powdered leaf only, and despite the warnings I dosed daily for 5 months. I actually considered going off of anti-depressants and tossing the Advil.
Unfortunately, my tolerance started to build and my addictive behavior kicked in fairly quickly. Doses eventually got up to around 8-10g x 3 daily. Occasionally more. The quantity and time of use was enough to cause a physical dependance and side-effects I didn't want to live with. Namely adjusting my eating schedule around doses which was a pain in the ass, constipation (literally a pain in the ass) and the worst of it- complete lack of sex drive. If it weren't for a new long term relationship I'm in, I doubt I'd be stopping. But the libido killer is a show stopper for me. Additionally, I have no desire to be a slave to a drug. I did that once before with alcohol and it destroyed my life.
I made a few attempts last month to quit CT, each time I suffered immense fatigue and depression for 2-3 days and couldn't take it anymore so I went back to using. I'd love to keep some Bali around (my fave) for occasional "fun" nights, since I don't do anything else, but that's just not me. I'm an addict, so I abstinence is the only way. I took a huge dose 2 weeks ago and got sick, then decided it was time to pull the plug. I ordered some Phenibut and have a prescription for Klonopin, figuring that would get the job done.
2 weeks ago I went on a sustained dose of Kratom, 6g/2 x daily with no problems. Then dropped to 4g/2 x daily after a week. A little lethargic and minor "blues" but no big deal. 2 days ago I finally jumped and WHOA. For the past 48 hours I've had acute depression, severe fatique- I can barely get off the couch to grab a Pepsi, and the worst is the RLS. For me, the RLS takes over my whole body and sleep just isn't possible. I toss and turn and get up, walk around, shake my arms and legs out and desperately want to sleep but can't. It's incredibly frustrating and pretty awful. I've never been through W/Ds before, not even after quitting alcohol CT. I can't fathom what it must be like on H, this is horribly unpleasant.
I decided to take 2g of Kratom before bed tonight and the symptoms generally disappeared within 30 minutes. So for the next 7 days I plan to continue taking 2g at night. After that, I'm taking 1 gram for 7 days then jumping again.
My questions is: Is it better to not continue the taper for the next 2 weeks and just deal with the w/d for a few days (which sucks ass) or is my taper plan a good one? This is for real and there is no possibility of me increasing the dose, I'm going off. But I'd like to make it as painless and quick as possible. If those are mutually exclusive ideas, which is the better route? I was nearly incapacitated today.
BTW> Over the last 2 weeks I tried a very reputable source of Phenibut in 1g doses at night every other day, but it didn't seem to help. I've been taking 1mg of Klonopin every night for 2 years as a prescription for anxiety (which is the next to go) and it does nothing to help with the RLS. Should I increase it?
Even after all the research I wasn't expecting the withdrawl to hit this hard. It's my fault, but still, it came as a very unwelcome surprise. I feel fine as I type this because the 2g I dosed definitely took the edge off for sure. Right now I'm looking for solid advice on what to do next and what to expect. I hear the symptoms can last from 3 days to 3 months...
I will add that prior to the jump, my taper schedule was working very well. It seems weird to me that 2 grams, on a full stomach no less, can alleviate the w/d symptoms but 0g comes on like a freight train.
-Z