Glad you had a good first experience with xanax (better than mine on the surface at least). In a way my first (out of two) experience with xanax (and with any benzo) was both a good and a bad thing. After about four months of abusing vicodins and a few other things (butalbital, tussionex, et al. Basically whatever i found in the medicine cabinet) my freshman year of high school (mind you i was 14 and about 95 pounds). I found some xanax in the cabinet took a vicodin, took some tussionex, then took two xanax. Well after that i felt great (obviously) but i felt so great that i decided to take 3 more xanax, after all they were only .5 mgs (smart move right, lol). Needless to say i put on a movie and fell asleep after about 5 mins, (for about 20 hours, although i feel like it could easily have been forever.)
Well i woke up STILL messed up, my pupils were ridiculously dilated. That day we had a family gathering and i took two more and some tussionex (this was time number 2). Needless to say everyone knew something was up. I told my cousin and she proceeded to tell my mom. Made for a terrible, but necessary couple of weeks and i stopped the drugs.
It hasnt been an easy road, i still get that feeling of excitement whenever im taking something, be it codeine syrup or whatever else (and i definitely get cravings, for lack of a better term, for that feeling) ,but at this point at 18 in college, i am no longer anything like an addict, although i know all it would take is a little nudge and i could fall right back to where i was or worse.
Sidenote, i discovered these forums a few weeks ago (this is my first post) and im really enjoying reading everyones stories on here.